Aaaaaah, Better.
Yesterday:
-Talked to the one i love, cleared some things up. Feel a lot better about it.
-Spent some good time talking and listening to a new friend. Both of us have been way stressed out lately, so it helped me feel happy and more normal to have someone to relate to.
-Spent a good amount of time walking before i caught the bus and was almost late to the show i was going to see, even though i was worried about being late walking feels so great.
-Saw Church and Plants and Animals at Doug Fir, I <3 Doug Fir! One of my fave venues. Ran into awesome ex co-workers Dave and Andrew. Hung out, enjoyed wonderful music, shimmied, had two mixed drinks, danced alone in a crowd of strangers.
-Walked back over the bridge into downtown. Stared at the dark black rippling water reflecting all the tiny incandescent orange lights. Thought halfheartedly about jumping and then realized i actually feel kind of happy and have a lot to live for right now.
-Smoked a clove while i was walking into downtown.
-Went to Voodoo Donuts. Bought a big box of donuts. Walked to the bus stop. Ate one. A donut, not a bus stop dumbass.
-Went to sleep.
-Had good dreams (that i can't remember)
Today:
-Woke up happy, fully rested, and comfortable for the first time in many days.
-Ate a donut
-Started halfheartedly cleaning house, dishes, laundry, cleaning the mess that is always accumulating on my floor.
-Got distracted several times by listening to music.
So yeah, all in all, the past day has been a marked improvement. :)
-Talked to the one i love, cleared some things up. Feel a lot better about it.
-Spent some good time talking and listening to a new friend. Both of us have been way stressed out lately, so it helped me feel happy and more normal to have someone to relate to.
-Spent a good amount of time walking before i caught the bus and was almost late to the show i was going to see, even though i was worried about being late walking feels so great.
-Saw Church and Plants and Animals at Doug Fir, I <3 Doug Fir! One of my fave venues. Ran into awesome ex co-workers Dave and Andrew. Hung out, enjoyed wonderful music, shimmied, had two mixed drinks, danced alone in a crowd of strangers.
-Walked back over the bridge into downtown. Stared at the dark black rippling water reflecting all the tiny incandescent orange lights. Thought halfheartedly about jumping and then realized i actually feel kind of happy and have a lot to live for right now.
-Smoked a clove while i was walking into downtown.
-Went to Voodoo Donuts. Bought a big box of donuts. Walked to the bus stop. Ate one. A donut, not a bus stop dumbass.
-Went to sleep.
-Had good dreams (that i can't remember)
Today:
-Woke up happy, fully rested, and comfortable for the first time in many days.
-Ate a donut
-Started halfheartedly cleaning house, dishes, laundry, cleaning the mess that is always accumulating on my floor.
-Got distracted several times by listening to music.
So yeah, all in all, the past day has been a marked improvement. :)