goddamn
school starts tomorrow. work to finish. from the way it looks, my chances of getting to any of the get-togethers in orlando anymore are pretty shot. and that's bs. i did not misspell orlando. and wth? "you have only made 1 friend". frank's idea of a joke? stupid sheep...stupid affair...hate it hate it hate it hatie tehiatehgfuck darkest before dawn eh? i'm guessing that'd refer to school tomorrow. it starts tomorrow. school, that is. work to finish. from the way it looks, my chances of going to orlando anymore are pretty shot. i hate it hate it hate it cut off out of touch far away and i hate it. what am i missing? something's going on and i'm out of it. out of it...keep saying that over and over in my head and i think it means something else that i don't know. everything's so quiet. i've never been online at this time with absolutely nobody to talk to. not normal. is everybody hunkering down for the beginning of school? out living it up before it starts again? why am i the only one confused as to what to do? why can't i be like i was four years ago and look at it as a chance to pursue my own interests? it seems...after i've gotten used to company...can't really do without it anymore. seems like just yesterday, it didn't make sense to me, after watching romances, why the guy and girl couldn't be content with living alone like they've been doing all this time, after meeting each other. seemed to me that they very effectively ruined each other's lives by falling for each other. can't believe how i could've held such a primitive and basely wrong thought in my head and not curse myself. come a long way. still a longer way to go. school starts again tomorrow