things i've been grasping onto for the past two days
-not crying
-keeping on top of my reading
-the new bts album (mess with time is my current favorite)
-going to all my classes
-riding my bike really fast
-watching goofy movies like velvet goldmine
-planning our take over of the downtown scene by booking bands at zelos
-trying to not making unnecessary phone calls
-not smoking *too* many cigarettes
-cleaning the apartment for when my sister visits
-trying to eat and not feel sick
update:
i'm trying to keep a healthy balance between optimism and despair. at times i feel good- it'll be fine. at times i feel my world is over. but i don't want to lean into thinking one way or the other just yet... time is going to tell. he is going to tell. but i'm trying to realize what i'm asking for from him is a process of becoming ok - and then i'm trying to make it all better right now. so i need to feel the process if i want it to happen- and that means letting time pass and feeling it pass.
-keeping on top of my reading
-the new bts album (mess with time is my current favorite)
-going to all my classes
-riding my bike really fast
-watching goofy movies like velvet goldmine
-planning our take over of the downtown scene by booking bands at zelos
-trying to not making unnecessary phone calls
-not smoking *too* many cigarettes
-cleaning the apartment for when my sister visits
-trying to eat and not feel sick
update:
i'm trying to keep a healthy balance between optimism and despair. at times i feel good- it'll be fine. at times i feel my world is over. but i don't want to lean into thinking one way or the other just yet... time is going to tell. he is going to tell. but i'm trying to realize what i'm asking for from him is a process of becoming ok - and then i'm trying to make it all better right now. so i need to feel the process if i want it to happen- and that means letting time pass and feeling it pass.