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So, my mom's cancer is back. Well, it never actually went completely away to begin with, but now it's SUPER back. It's pretty scary, but less so than last time. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that with the first go-round, it was such a shock that I was running on auto-pilot. I literally alternated between shock, screaming/crying and comforting. Now that I've had almost two years to get used to it (as much as you can get used to such a thing), I feel more prepared and unfailingly grateful for every stolen moment God has given our family.
Now my mom is trying to decide what to do: 1) Move on to a new course of chemotherapy. Even though the last chemo has stopped working and she would get so sick because of the treatments that she said she sometimes felt like the walking dead already. 2) Have another surgery to remove the tumors in her liver, which could conceivably result in severe complications (i.e. weeks in the hospital because of infections, since this is a new surgery and the infection rate for it is startlingly high); but it could also result in a tumor-less liver. 3) Quit all forms of treatment and focus on quality of life rather than quantity.
I'm an inherently selfish being and since my mom is my best friend, I want her around. I also want her to be as happy as she can be for the rest of her life. It's so strange to be 25 and feel like I've been a grown up for too long.
Oh, yeah. I'm a teacher now. I teach Kindergarten and I love it, even though the kids make me crazy and I am tired all the time.
Alright, livejournal. See you again in 6 months.
Now my mom is trying to decide what to do: 1) Move on to a new course of chemotherapy. Even though the last chemo has stopped working and she would get so sick because of the treatments that she said she sometimes felt like the walking dead already. 2) Have another surgery to remove the tumors in her liver, which could conceivably result in severe complications (i.e. weeks in the hospital because of infections, since this is a new surgery and the infection rate for it is startlingly high); but it could also result in a tumor-less liver. 3) Quit all forms of treatment and focus on quality of life rather than quantity.
I'm an inherently selfish being and since my mom is my best friend, I want her around. I also want her to be as happy as she can be for the rest of her life. It's so strange to be 25 and feel like I've been a grown up for too long.
Oh, yeah. I'm a teacher now. I teach Kindergarten and I love it, even though the kids make me crazy and I am tired all the time.
Alright, livejournal. See you again in 6 months.