meredith & derek - season 2 picspam
I started this at 10 PM past night, stayed up till 4:30am, it's now 1:07 and I'm skipping class to post it.
DEDICATED OR LAME, YOU DECIDE.
I've been watching Season 2 for the first time in like...a year.
And my love for it stil remains.
Just like my love for the story of Meredith & Derek -- especially S2 them.
SO. PICSPAM.
RAINDROPS KEEP FALLING ON MY HEAD
What are YOU doing here? You left everything -- your house, your wife, your practice.
You had a life. Now you have a girlfriend in Seattle. She seems... sweet.
.......Let's begin.
-- Oh, well, that's a relief. Not personal. It's personal to me!
-- How long have you been sleeping with an intern?
-- I guess part of being chief is personal.
Why so worked up, Der? It's just your wife.
I wore my new lip gloss because my ex-boyfriend's wife looks like Isabella freaking Rossellini and I'm like.. me.
I'm trying to outdo her when she's the victim here. How crazy is that?"
:(:(
"I met this woman. I got drunk and she took advantage of me. Or she got drunk and I took advantage of her. I got drunk and she took--
No. We were drunk, definitely. Somebody took advantage. Either way, I like to look at it as my initiation into Seattle.
This makes me lol everytime.
One night, I park my car. I unlock my front door. I go inside my house and something's different. Nothing's different, everything's the same, but yet still ..something's different. And I stand there for awhile....and then I know. See, there are moment for me, usually when I'm in the OR, when I just know what's going to happen next. So I go upstairs, as I'm walking down the hall I try to prepare myself for what I'm going to see when I go into my bedroom. I step on a man's jacket that doesn't belong to me. And everything I think I know...just shifts. Because the jacket that doesn't belong to me is a jacket that I recognize. What I know now is that when I go into my bedroom, I'm not just going to see that my wife is cheating on me; I'm going to see that my wife is cheating on me with Mark, who happened to be my best friend... it's just so pedestrian and common and dirty and cruel..mostly just cruel. I left, came out here.
- And you met me.
- And I met you.
- So what was I to you? The girl you screwed to get over being screwed?
- You were like coming up for fresh air. It was like I was drowning and you saved me. That's all I know.
- ... It's not enough.
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH.
Also, foreshadowing that I can't even appreciate.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
I feel empty.
Okay, cutest facial expression ever.
But still soooo sad.
- Did we not communicate last night? Did you hear what I was saying?
- Your wife screwed your best friend.
- And then from that point on she longer existed to me anymore.
- You have martial amnesia.
- No. Come on, I bared my soul to you last night.
- It's not enough.
- How can it not be enough?
- When you waited two months to tell me and I had to find out by her showing up, all leggy and fabulous
and telling me herself. You pulled the plus. I'm a sink with an open drain; anything you say runs right out. There is no enough.
THIS HURTS.
There is nothing worse, in the world, than thinking you have a chance when you really don't.
LONGING GLANCES. They seriously break me.
Look out for her.
HIS FACIAL EXPRESSION SAYS EVERYTHING.
MAKE ME LOSE CONTROL
OH GOD.
Only because it's one of my FAVORITE caps ever in the world to crop and color.
- Meredith. I heard. Is it true?
-Yeah. Secret's out.
- Dr. Shepherd -
- You don't have to call me Dr. Shepherd.
-- Dr. Shepherd, I want in on a surgical case. I can't just do nothing all day. And you owe me this.
Something about this just breaks my heart.
What kind of person wishes their mother had cancer?
Another favorite cap. And just...Merediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiith.
Derek leaning against that railing ALWAYS breaks my heart. TMTH.
Hating you is the most exhausting. And I don't want to do it anymore.
JEEEEEEEEEESUS.
DENY, DENY, DENY
- Addison kissed me. Meredith kissed me. My wife and my girlfriend kissed me on the same day.
- McDreamy, go sit by someone who cares.
- Everything's gonna be fine. Addison'll go back to New York. Meredith and I will start over. Everything's gonna be fine. Right?
- You so damn stupid.
LOLOLOL. OH GOD, THESE TWO.
And yes, Derek, you so damn stupid.
Addison is leaving. She doesn't have any more patients in this hospital. There's no reason for her to be here.
- No reason?
- None whatsoever.
THE HAND AND THE FACE.
Oh and the deceiving joy of no more Addison in the way.
WHAAAAAAAAT ARE YOU DOOOOOOING.
She gave me divorce papers. She filed.
- Oh, well, that's good.
- All I have to do is sign, and I'm free. We're free.
HOPE. WE HAVE HOPE. DEREEEEEEEK.
You're trying to drive me crazy, aren't you?
....
- Look you put yourself between two very fine women and you're looking for an easy way out. You wanna use me, the hospital, somebody to make the decision for you and it's not gonna happen!
Can I just say a couple of things?
- Just...
I could seriously watch these two all day.
I LOVE HOW BAILEY JUST KNOCKS HIM ON ASS. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
Again. WHAAAAAAT ARE YOU DOOOOING.
WHY ARE YOU HESITATIIIIIIIING. jUST QUIT IT AND QUIT HER.
SIGN.
HEART. BREAK. I just...
WHY DIDNT YOU SIGN ITTTTTTTTTTTTT.
BRING THE PAIN
I don't wanna have this conversation again.
- Meredith...
- You didn't sign the divorce papers. Fine. I get it. End of discussion.
- Meredith.
- What?!
- Oh...I usually just say Meredith and then you yell at me. I haven't thought past that point. I actually didn't have anything planned.
Okay, Derek's expression during that last night? MARVELOUS.
Look. I was married for 11 years. Addison is my family. That's 11 Thanksgiving's, 11 birthday's, and 11 Christmas's and in one day I'm supposed to sign a piece of paper and end my family? A person doesn't do that. Not without a little hesitation. I'm entitled to a little uncertainty here. Just a moment to the magnitude of what it means to cut somebody out of my life. I'm entitled to at least one moment of painful doubt. And a little understanding from you would nice.
I absolutely love Derek in this scene and there's really something heartbreaking about his situtation.
I lied. I'm not out of this relationship. I'm in. I'm so in, it's humilating because here I am begging.
- Meredith, just..
- Shut up. You say 'Meredith' and I yell, remember?
- Yeah.
- Okay. Here it is. Your choice? It's simple. Her or me. And I'm sure she's really great. But Derek, I love you. In a..really really big, pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me.
Must I say anything? I honestly think this is what the show is known for.
It's fucking beautiful and heartbreaking and no matter if you hate or love Meredith, you feel for her right now.
He doesn't love her. He can't. But he'll stay with her anyway. She's his wife.
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD WHY IS SHE SAYING THIIIIIS?
- You haven't signed those divorce papers yet, have you?
- Bailey, tell me what to do. God, why does this have to be so hard.
- It's not hard. It's painful, but it's not hard. Come on, you know what to do already. If you didn't, you wouldn't be in so much pain.
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
I love Bailey and Derek, just fyi.
INTO YOU LIKE A TRAIN
You, who pretend to be my friends, are calling me pathetic, behind my back, in front of my face.
Her faaaaaaaaace.
Dude, you're late.
EVERY FANGIRL'S HEART JUST STOPPED WORLDWIDE.
HE NODDED. WHAAAAT DOES IT MEAN?
God this episode just...killer.
So, how you choose? How do you decide who needs to gets to live?
How do you choose, Derek?
- You know, I uh..I went to the bar.
- I heard.
Oh, you're staying with her.
Yeah. She's my wife.
- ... Dr. Shepherd, she's crashing!
WHAT. WHAAAAT. WHY. WHY DEREK, WHY?
And that "Dr. Shepherd's, she's crashing" right after he breaks her heart it just..ugh Shonda, you used to be so brilliant.
What about her?! We can't just abandon her. What about her? We cannot just abandon her!
Okay, Derek's heartbroken, guilty look over at Meredith?
If love were enough, that she'd still be here with you.
OH GODDDDDDD.
That hand on the wall. The tears. EVERYTHING about those two scenes.
He knows what he gave up, he knows it but gives it up anyways and Bailey just gets it and fuck my ass, TMTH.
SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT
Just..her face.
Those glances still kill me.
- Are you going to stop talking to Meredith?
- I will.
- When? Today, tomorrow, next week?
- Maybe I'm not ready yet.
I just wanna make sure she's okay.
And what are YOU looking at?
He hears, straight from her, the damage he did. IT KINDA HURTS A LITTLE.
LET IT BE
I think you have to save yourself.
I miss you.
- .... I can't.
I really watch this episode just for this moment. NOT REALLY. BUT OHGOD.
Just...the expressions on their faces.
THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES
Me and you, in this weird limbo.It's gonna go on forever, isn't it?
- I hope not, but I think so.
- Yeah, me too.
- Mer...
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH. They always have something to say to eachother.
This hurts.
Everyone's moved on. Except for him. It's not an easy thing.
- Meredith, I'm sorry.
- I know.
I want to pull my organs out everytime I watch this scene.
WE NEED MOAR THEM.
What would you have done if you were him? Would you have the surgery?
- You would have the surgery.
- I would want the future. Or to be asleep again. One or the other. Nothing in between.
- I honestly don't know what I'd want.
- I know you don't.
QUIT IT. Just...quit knowing eachother so well.
Not while you're apart.
Do you love her?
- I don't know.
- It's good that you're trying.You wouldn't be you if you if you weren't the kind of person trying to make it work.
- You think so?
- Yeah. It means I wasn't wrong about you.
- Thanks.
Watch the scenes and look at how quickly the tears come to both their eyes.
MUCH TOO MUCH
OMG OKAY. THE FACES. HER FACES.
Oh, and jealous Derek. :D
Joe's Bar? Mhmm. I met a girl there once myself, a very long time ago.
HIS facial expressions both hurt me and make me LOL in this scene.
It's heartbreaking, really, the realization that their place is no longer.
Well, you knew it would happen eventually.
- Eventually feels a lot different than actually.
- Yeah, I guess it does.
- Well, it's surprisingly painful.
- It gets better.
- Does it?
- Well,I don't know but I'm deteremined to be optimistic.
IIIIIII..am dead.
OWNER OF A LONELY HEART
Don't peg me. I'm not peggable.
- You're pegged. Deal with it.
OH GOD CUTE.
You're still you?
I'm still me.
EVERYTHING about this scene is beautiful. Every.Thing.
GRANDMA GOT RUNOVER BY A REINDEER
You okay? You seem..
- Yeah..you know, holidays.
- Oh. Yeah. I do know.
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
OKAY GOD OKAY. Watch this scene and just look at Derek's head shake. IT SAYS EVERYTHING. Pain and guilt and love and want and need and lskdjflsdkf. THEY ARE MISERABLE DURING THE HAPPIEST TIME OF THE YEAR. This isn't right.
Christmas makes you want to be with the people you love. I'm not saying to hurt you or because I want to leave you, because I don't.
Meredith wasn't a fling, she wasn' revenge; I fell in love with her. That doesn't go away because I decided to stay with you.
The pain in his voice just obliterates me.
[yes, I do feel momentus amounts of pain for Addie, too, fyi.]
I have a dog.
- You have a dog.
- My point is, I have a dog.
- You have a dog. Oh, you know what?! I love dogs.
- I've moved on so don't give me that look.
- What look?
- That look. Our look. I'm over you.
- I'm over you, too.
- You are?
- No.
- Oh well. I am. Over you.
- I'm over you, too.
- You just said! Shut up.
OMG OKAY THE WAY HE BLATANTLY CHECKS HER OUR LIKE THREE TIMES AND TILTS HIS HEAD
TOWARDS HER HOW HE DOES IN THAT SEXY WAY ONLY PADDY CAN DO AND THE FLIRTING:
ITS TMTH.
Well see this, what you're doing, being dreamy? It doesn't help. It hurts me. It messes with my head.
- I know the feeling.
- I don't doubt that.
TELL ME SWEET LITTLE LIES
I was being nice to her. I can nice to her wihtout being..
- McDreamy.
- I really can.
I lied about Derek. We're not just friends. I mean...I'm not. He's still McDreamy
Always was and always will be.
BREAK ON THROUGH
LOOOOOOOOOOOKIT. Just...loook it. I cry. Still. I just. The pain.
THE END OF THE WORLD
The man I love has a wife. And then he chooses her over me. And that wife takes me dog. Okay, she didn't the dog, I gave it to her but I didn't mean to give it to her; I meant to give it to him. But that does not change the fact that she's got my McDreamy. And my McDog. She's got my McLife. And what do I got? You know, I can't remember the last time we kissed. 'Cause you never think the last time is going to be the last time. You think there's gonna be more. You think have forever but you don't.
Then she gets petulant and it makes me giggl. UGH THIS SCENE I love it.
If you wait long enough, it passes.
- Promise?
- Promise.
...
-Whatcha doin'?
- Waiting for it to pass.
The fast tears, again. CANT. HANDLE.
AS WE KNOW IT
It's Meredith. The girl with the bomb is Meredith.
HIS EYES.
I'm scared.
- I know.
- You can do this. You can do this, Meredith.
Him. It's him. He's it for her. All she needs. He calms her. Believes in her. Helps her.
That is not the 'she' he was looking for.
I can't look at this second cap without tearing up. Look at his face. Just...lookit.
It was a Thursday morning. You were wearing that ratty little Dartmouth t-shirt you look so good in. The one with the hole in the back of the neck. You had just washed your hair and you smelled like some kind of flower, or..I was running late for surgery. You said you were going to see me later. Then, you leaned to me, put your hand on my chest, and you kissed me. Soft. It was quick. Kind of like a habit. You know, like we'd do it everyday for the rest of our lives. You went back to reading the newspaper and I went to work. That was the last time we kissed.
SO I COULDNT GET A CAP OF HIS SMILE AS HE LEAVES BUT JUST PRETEND, OKAY?
And just his face when he first sees her and tht exhale of breath to know she's okay. It's all makes for beautiful love.
YESTERDAY
You know, it's funny. Derek walksin on me naked in bed with his wife, actually in the throws, and he just turns around and walks away. But he see me so much as talking to you, and I'm on the ground bleeding. Interesting, don't you think.
Why do you think she cheated on you? Were you different then? When you a bad husband?
I was a little...absent. Not that that's an excuse for her.
I kidna truly love them talking about this.
She won't show, you know. He's not the kind of guy you leave if you can help it.
Those two. I love Mark/Meredith and their dirty, dirty ways.
There's a lot to explored with these two but I love how Meredith is just honest --
you don't walk away from him.
[this is before Shonda went apeshit and totally fucked that line up]
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?
You won't lose me.
- You're not my friend.
- Yes I am. Well, I could be. I'm a very good friend.
- No. We can't be friends.
- Yes, we can. You'd be very lucky to have me.
- How? How can we be friends?
I don't even. That last cap.
So.
- So.
- Just friends?
- Just friends.
AND HIS FACE IN THAT FIRST CAP.
Aaaaaaand. The way they both like move away from eachother at the same time, but not really?
adkadlkadasd.
BAND -AID COVERS THE BULLET HOLE
Truthfully, at this moment in time, I don't have any problems. Not a single one.
I kinda love how Derek's leans into her. And the way he bites his lip. YEAH, WATCH CLOSELY.
Also, the way he says "the moments of our lives" REALLY makes me squeel.
OH and the fact that them together leaves me problem-free.
It's good to see you today.
OH. OH THIS. STOP KILLING ME WITH CUTE.
What the hell did you do?
- I'm not telling you.
- You know, as a friend, you suck.
I almost only think of the bloopers with this.
"This tastes like shit." PADDY.
They're sharing sandwiches!!!
OH PARALLELS. I love how Derek takes advice from everyone but when he tells someone not to settle, while he himself is settling, it hurts.
You do what I do. Use the elevator.
Jealousy. Pain. Loning. Pretending. It takes a lot.
SUPERSTITION
MOAR GLANCES.
THE NAME OF THE GAME
Every guy I meet turns out to be married.
ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOFL.
BLUES FOR SISTER SOMEONE
We're trying really hard to have some decent sex here!
Yikes.
Conversation is still good but the sex has gone to pot?
LOOOOOOOOOOL.
It's just..you know, bad sex isn't something that wives want announced to the ex-mistress.
AND THEN THE DELETED SCENE WHERE THEY TALK ABOUT THE BENDY THING IN THE SHOWER.
It's like with you and your wife. Is the bad sex your biggest problem or are all the bigger problems causing all the bad sex?
Derbeaaaaaaaaaaar.
Because the hot sex, withh the bendy thing, is, I am postive, all about Meredith.
DAMAGE CASE
It's unforgiveable.
- I don't remember ever asking you to forgive me.
- So was the knitting a phase? Whose next? Alex? I hear he likes to sleep around. You two have that in common.
- You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the the boys and all the bars and all the obvious dadyy issue, who cares. because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I'm all glued bI make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me whore.
- This thing with us, it's finished. It over.
- Finally.
- Yeah, it's done.
- It is done.
Um. Epically amazing? Heartbreaking? True to life?
17 SECONDS
Derek. Derek is picturing you.
He called me a whore. He lost the right to picture me.
Okay. This cap makes my ovaries explode.
I want you to care! I sleep with your best friend and you walk away. He comes out here from New York and rubs it in your face and still, you get a good night's sleep. What do I have to do? Oh, I know. Maybe what I should do is go out on a date with the vet, because that seems to be something to send you into a blind rage. But that won't work either because I'm not Meredith Grey!
Technically Derek/Addison but not really.
So I lied earlier. THIS IS MY FAVORITE SCENE OF THEIRS EVER.
And they don't even speak. Not one word. They want to. Oh, do they want to. There's just..so much to be said and nothing to be said and it all just fucking makes me want to cry -- it does make me cry, actually. The looks on their faces and the defeat and utter pain and dslkfjdsfsdfl.
I do. I love him so much.
DETERIORIATION OF THE FIGHT OR FLIGHT REPSONSE/
LOSING MY RELIGION
aka .thebest two hours of teevee. ever.
OMG THE BLOOPERS. But seriously.
UGH. The looks.
Finn thinks there's something going on between Derek and I. Which there is not. There so clearly is not.
OH BOY. TEARS.
The last thing linking them together, their love, is gone.
I can't breathe with you looking at me like that so just stop!
- Do you think I wanna look at you? That I wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I'm married! I have responsibilities! She..she doesn't drive me crazy. She doesn't.. make it impossible for me to feel normal. She doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my veterinarian touching her with his hands. Man, I would give ANYTHING NOT to be looking at you!
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD OH GODDDDDDDD
Who knew crying and getting turned on could happen simultaneously?
Because um. I cry and get extremely turned on every. time. I watch this.
UM. I start at 1:07. I finshed at 6:23.
No food all day. No breaks. Skipped class.
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