reflection and looking forward
i've been meaning to post for a while now and was luckily inspired by seedsprouter and t_feezy's recent posts.
had a great tet this year with the fam. the last few days have been all about with nonstop cleaning and preparing for the new year, and today was filled with visits to many temples, incense, crowds of viet people, monks, bun bo hue chay, and hopeful prayers and intentions.
my sis read my "fortune" for horses for the upcoming year. according to her sources, the year of the ox is supposed to be a challenging year for me. haha! that's a funny one. besides the year, what else is new?
so yeah homies, 2008 was uhhh...not so great. not just for me it seems but for many folks. and it was most definitely another challenging year. there were a lot of intensity throughout the year and a lot of things that happened that diminished my sense of optimism and faith in people and compelled me to not naively trust them as much as i used to. not necessarily a bad thing since i seem to have had an over-abundance of those traits anyway. i guess you can say that i'm shedding those things like a fluffy mangy mutt during summertime. maybe i'm a cynic now, or maybe not. haha!
when it comes down to it, i suspect that i'm just tired of the rampant haterism. it's like a disease of the mind, mine and others. i'm not excluding myself from this of course. i'm a little world-weary these days - believe it or not, i feel a bit disillusioned and disenchanted with certain things, certain patterns of living and interacting that have outlived their usefulness to me.
again, this is not such a bad thing. i feel as though for so long now my perspective and world view has been cluttered and clouded by illusions and delusions of all kinds, most of them harmful to me and others. an active commitment to truth can be a very sobering process after all. ultimately i believe that mindfulness and wisdom are about realizing truth and finally seeing things for what they brutally and truly are, and yet still come to the conclusion that love and compassion skillfully practiced is the way forward.
in the new year, i also wanna trust myself more, and cultivate more confidence and faith in my gifts and the path that i'm walking and the causes and conditions that shape my life. life's a trip, but that doesn't mean i have to be constantly trippin'. for real though! my other intention is to stop cursing my bad past karma and get to work on my present and future actions of body, speech, and mind. i would like to devote myself more to my own professional growth, to becoming wiser and more responsible, to self-determination, and of course to constantly practice love and make it a living, positive, creative force for goodness. now that, my friends, is a force to be reckoned with.
happy new year y'all.
had a great tet this year with the fam. the last few days have been all about with nonstop cleaning and preparing for the new year, and today was filled with visits to many temples, incense, crowds of viet people, monks, bun bo hue chay, and hopeful prayers and intentions.
my sis read my "fortune" for horses for the upcoming year. according to her sources, the year of the ox is supposed to be a challenging year for me. haha! that's a funny one. besides the year, what else is new?
so yeah homies, 2008 was uhhh...not so great. not just for me it seems but for many folks. and it was most definitely another challenging year. there were a lot of intensity throughout the year and a lot of things that happened that diminished my sense of optimism and faith in people and compelled me to not naively trust them as much as i used to. not necessarily a bad thing since i seem to have had an over-abundance of those traits anyway. i guess you can say that i'm shedding those things like a fluffy mangy mutt during summertime. maybe i'm a cynic now, or maybe not. haha!
when it comes down to it, i suspect that i'm just tired of the rampant haterism. it's like a disease of the mind, mine and others. i'm not excluding myself from this of course. i'm a little world-weary these days - believe it or not, i feel a bit disillusioned and disenchanted with certain things, certain patterns of living and interacting that have outlived their usefulness to me.
again, this is not such a bad thing. i feel as though for so long now my perspective and world view has been cluttered and clouded by illusions and delusions of all kinds, most of them harmful to me and others. an active commitment to truth can be a very sobering process after all. ultimately i believe that mindfulness and wisdom are about realizing truth and finally seeing things for what they brutally and truly are, and yet still come to the conclusion that love and compassion skillfully practiced is the way forward.
in the new year, i also wanna trust myself more, and cultivate more confidence and faith in my gifts and the path that i'm walking and the causes and conditions that shape my life. life's a trip, but that doesn't mean i have to be constantly trippin'. for real though! my other intention is to stop cursing my bad past karma and get to work on my present and future actions of body, speech, and mind. i would like to devote myself more to my own professional growth, to becoming wiser and more responsible, to self-determination, and of course to constantly practice love and make it a living, positive, creative force for goodness. now that, my friends, is a force to be reckoned with.
happy new year y'all.