Slight improvement
I feel a bit better nooooow!
This calls for a change in font color. If I didn't want to park butt in drawing!time as soon as possible, I'd search around for the html for that big!sparkly!font! I see around.
I feel better because rather then kick and scream about my blood sugar (and neurochemistry) being FUBARed, I am trying to just sort of accept it and work around it. I'm going to see the Evil Doctor next thursday. I'm making notes on my daily adventures in Insulinland for her benefit. I'm sure she'll be like, totally convinced this time.
anyway, I feel better!
It's not sunny today. I was hoping that it would be, since a long sunny afternoon would be the perfect setting for me finally polishing off chapter 11 of Still Waters. The thing has been written in rough form for the last two weeks at least, but I'm picking at it, because some freaks who have told me that Boy-in-question and Girl-in-question are out of character have me overly concerned. When you start to pick-pick-pick at your writing like this, it really doesn't help anything.. meh.
As far as I can tell, the complaint is that Girl is showing a hint of spine and moral agency (and she must remain timid and spineless FOREVAH!) and Boy is showing a hint of emotional awareness (and he must remain a emotionless sadist-seme FOREVAH!) and yeah.. the kind of story that would please that subset of the fandom (who, as far as I can tell, are not SasuHina fans and flat out do not like the pairing) wouldn't be the kind that I wanna write. And would totally alienate the people who do like the story, are SasuHina fans and are the people I should be writing for.
That being said, something about ~10 years in creative professions with mucho daily critique from people who don't give a flying shit about my fee-fees and enjoy ripping shit apart since they're paying me and it's their prviliege and yeah has not prepared me ONE IOTA to deal with the slings and arrows of fanfic-writing. I don't know why.. rationally I know what's going on. But I feel the need to bitch in my journal nonetheless! :D
My theory is that everyone in fandom goes through this period of 'adjustment', shall we say, when they are a newbie. I'm just doing it WAAAAAAY late, probably 15 years later then most people do. Sorry for the wanking. XD
(Addendum: lots of people have said nice things about the story, and have felt that Girl and Boy are securely IC.. so yeah.. this is me learning how to deal with fandom without acting like a horse's ass. I'll figure it out eventually. XD)
Anyway. Feel better!
This calls for a change in font color. If I didn't want to park butt in drawing!time as soon as possible, I'd search around for the html for that big!sparkly!font! I see around.
I feel better because rather then kick and scream about my blood sugar (and neurochemistry) being FUBARed, I am trying to just sort of accept it and work around it. I'm going to see the Evil Doctor next thursday. I'm making notes on my daily adventures in Insulinland for her benefit. I'm sure she'll be like, totally convinced this time.
anyway, I feel better!
It's not sunny today. I was hoping that it would be, since a long sunny afternoon would be the perfect setting for me finally polishing off chapter 11 of Still Waters. The thing has been written in rough form for the last two weeks at least, but I'm picking at it, because some freaks who have told me that Boy-in-question and Girl-in-question are out of character have me overly concerned. When you start to pick-pick-pick at your writing like this, it really doesn't help anything.. meh.
As far as I can tell, the complaint is that Girl is showing a hint of spine and moral agency (and she must remain timid and spineless FOREVAH!) and Boy is showing a hint of emotional awareness (and he must remain a emotionless sadist-seme FOREVAH!) and yeah.. the kind of story that would please that subset of the fandom (who, as far as I can tell, are not SasuHina fans and flat out do not like the pairing) wouldn't be the kind that I wanna write. And would totally alienate the people who do like the story, are SasuHina fans and are the people I should be writing for.
That being said, something about ~10 years in creative professions with mucho daily critique from people who don't give a flying shit about my fee-fees and enjoy ripping shit apart since they're paying me and it's their prviliege and yeah has not prepared me ONE IOTA to deal with the slings and arrows of fanfic-writing. I don't know why.. rationally I know what's going on. But I feel the need to bitch in my journal nonetheless! :D
My theory is that everyone in fandom goes through this period of 'adjustment', shall we say, when they are a newbie. I'm just doing it WAAAAAAY late, probably 15 years later then most people do. Sorry for the wanking. XD
(Addendum: lots of people have said nice things about the story, and have felt that Girl and Boy are securely IC.. so yeah.. this is me learning how to deal with fandom without acting like a horse's ass. I'll figure it out eventually. XD)
Anyway. Feel better!