"I can tell, I can tell how much you hate this, and deep down inside you know it's killing me..."
Well, this has been a pretty good summer so far.
Life has been boring, but I'm enjoying it.
There's something enticing about not having anything planned.
I think that's why I like summer.
Though I need a job pretty bad,
I will admit it's been nice.
Throughout the school year,
I have every second of my life planned.
And it get very old very quickly.
That's why summer is fabulous.
I can sit here and do absoultely nothing,
And feel only mildly guilty about it.
This has been a slightly rough week.
I can't be specific.
But people have disappointed me.
Ehh actually, I don't like that word.
It's more...
I don't even know.
I feel... sorry for them...?
I'm hurt.
The song "Save You" by Kelly Clarkson is exactly how I feel.
I feel guilty and bad.
When people I'm close to feel pain or insecurity,
I tend to relate.
I think I'm too empathetic sometimes.
And that's not bragging by any means.
I get sucked into what their feeling.
And I'm hurting.
Because I know someone is hurting.
And they are resentful of the consequences that they are experiencing.
I don't know what do to.
But it's being handled.
I'm just scared for her.
I'm going to Chicago on Saturday.
I'm so excited.
It's going to be awesome to get away and see God work.
I think we got into a routine with DC.
Going down there, helping the kids, leaving.
We became comfortable with it.
Which is not good.
Because in our routine,
we were missing opportunities and overlooking God's work.
But with Chicago, it's different.
It's new for all of us.
New city, new people, new problems,
New opportunities for God to transform others through us.
I'm wayyyy excited.
Well, I'm off to write my thank you notes for my grad party.
And watch the Michael Jackson memorial on TV. :[
Have a joyous week! :]
