The other night was my "graduation" from the Hospice Volunteer Training. Either it was emotional, or I was. I'm not sure which. All I know is that I sat in that room for three weeks being asked to dig down deep and think of (and share if I pleased, which I did not please) the most hurtful, painful, sad, touching, beautiful happenstances in my ( Read more... )

I, as usual, have an issue with the training I'm currently taking. WHAT. Is new? It is, of course, because I'm knowledgeable and well versed and brilliant and superior to the rest of the human race that I take issue, of course ( Read more... )

The other night, at Hospice Training, we were all asked to make a time line of the various losses in our lives, including but not limited to DEATHS. I did not include every person I've ever known to die, as my paper would not have had the room. I did, however, include the significant losses such as my mother being the first, Janet being the first ( Read more... )

I love all of my friends and adopted family dearly. I am, often times, not the best at expressing this...and frequently make a habit of making them think otherwise by sheer avoidance ( Read more... )

I do feel like I'm in a better place, I guess. However. I feel like I'm in Frogger. While the side of the road is definitely a better place, a place where I'm much less likely to be run over by speeding semi's and dancing dinosaurs....I'm still refusing to face what has to be faced in order to get to my lily ( Read more... )

Denise asked me why I think I seem to be doing better. She suggested distance. I don't know? But distance from what? I was talking to her on the phone tonight, and said something off the top of my head about how I'm in a new place with new worries and new responsibilities that need to be taken care of. I told her its nice to focus on those - ( Read more... )

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People are so ignorant ( Read more... )

I need a real post. With real sentences in real paragraph form ( Read more... )