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i dont want to regret anything. i don't. i wish i didn't.
i feel so stupid for giving myself wholeheartedly to you. you tell me that you haven't been happy with me for a while...i wish you could have let me in on it. i didn't do anything to you. you say it's because we fought, and yet we hadnt fought until a few days ago. you gave up. you gave up on us and that's why we were fighting. everything i said pissed you off. you said it was time to give up, that we fought too much to work out. but we didn't. you just weren't willing to make it work anymore. i'm sorry for everything... i'm sorry that i didn't make you happy, you know that I tried as hard as I could have.
maybe I wasn't enough. if i would have been, you would'nt have blown up over something so small.
how can i get over you? you asked me never to talk to you again. not to call you. i dont understand where this came from...what did i do wrong? you say you're still in love with me but that we'll be better off this way. if we love each other, why couldn't we make it work? i guess your feelings changed for me.
you're not the same person anymore. my family did everything for you and here you are criticizing them. i did everything for you and here you are making me feel horrible. i shouldn't have given you my heart, you never deserved it. you never deserved me, but i wish i would have seen that earlier.
thanks for all of the memories, we have some very nice ones. thinking about them hurts a lot right now, but maybe some day i'll just look at it as "my first love". i'm not going to remember you the way you've been lately. thats not you. i'll remember you as the boy who would make me lunches for school and would show up at my school to serenade me and the boy who i could get lost with for hours. my best friend. the person i loved more than anything in the world. the person i would have done anything for. the boy who cared and would call me back after we fought saying you were sorry, that we could work it out, that i meant too much to let go of. i guess i don't anymore, seeing as how we didn't really fight about anything and yet it was so easy for you to just leave me.
i was in the process of inviting you on a cruise with me to hawaii for my birthday.
you don't deserve me. you don't deserve these tears.
and yet you have them.
and you somehow still have me.
i feel incredibly alone. this is by far the worst summer ever. nobody's bothered calling me.
happy birthday to me.
i feel so stupid for giving myself wholeheartedly to you. you tell me that you haven't been happy with me for a while...i wish you could have let me in on it. i didn't do anything to you. you say it's because we fought, and yet we hadnt fought until a few days ago. you gave up. you gave up on us and that's why we were fighting. everything i said pissed you off. you said it was time to give up, that we fought too much to work out. but we didn't. you just weren't willing to make it work anymore. i'm sorry for everything... i'm sorry that i didn't make you happy, you know that I tried as hard as I could have.
maybe I wasn't enough. if i would have been, you would'nt have blown up over something so small.
how can i get over you? you asked me never to talk to you again. not to call you. i dont understand where this came from...what did i do wrong? you say you're still in love with me but that we'll be better off this way. if we love each other, why couldn't we make it work? i guess your feelings changed for me.
you're not the same person anymore. my family did everything for you and here you are criticizing them. i did everything for you and here you are making me feel horrible. i shouldn't have given you my heart, you never deserved it. you never deserved me, but i wish i would have seen that earlier.
thanks for all of the memories, we have some very nice ones. thinking about them hurts a lot right now, but maybe some day i'll just look at it as "my first love". i'm not going to remember you the way you've been lately. thats not you. i'll remember you as the boy who would make me lunches for school and would show up at my school to serenade me and the boy who i could get lost with for hours. my best friend. the person i loved more than anything in the world. the person i would have done anything for. the boy who cared and would call me back after we fought saying you were sorry, that we could work it out, that i meant too much to let go of. i guess i don't anymore, seeing as how we didn't really fight about anything and yet it was so easy for you to just leave me.
i was in the process of inviting you on a cruise with me to hawaii for my birthday.
you don't deserve me. you don't deserve these tears.
and yet you have them.
and you somehow still have me.
i feel incredibly alone. this is by far the worst summer ever. nobody's bothered calling me.
happy birthday to me.