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I just got back from my last night of dance rechital.
It was fun to dance. I'm glad i decided to do it agian
this year after all. Competion next weeeekenddd.

I was sort of sad tonight though. I realized i have no
real friends at dance class. Nathan had a show tonight
so i was by myself all night long. I hated sitting there
while everyone was sitting with other people and I was
by myself. And no one wanted to talk to me because they
aren't my friend. Which i can understand. This might
sound weird. And i'd never want to be, but I get really
jelouse of people that have lots of friends. I don't.
They look alot happier because they always have someone
to talk to.

I think i have something really wrong with me when it
comes to having to talk to people. I real fear. Every
time i'm around a group of people I usually sit alone.
But I feel like everyone is staring at me and thinks
something is wrong with me so i try and talk to people
but i feel even more akward doing that. So, if that
overwelms me enough, I end up sitting in the bathroom
stale just hoping that i can pass as much time as I
can in there. I don't know why, I just end up doing it.
I hate doing it, and i wish i was free willed with
anyone, but i feel so wrong with people that I don't
know very well. Exspecially in crowds. But yeah i am
going to go watch a movie and wait for nathan to come
back. Later.