Rawr
So, on Saturday, I received a little revelation at work.
My coworker asked me my preference on the thousandth little detail -- which machine's set of code should be considered the "canonical" one... how I wanted to transfer stuff from one place to another.. who should do the documentation, something like that. And I said "however you want to do it is fine with me," to which he replied, "this is your baby."
So I went outside to smoke, and a thought began scratching at the back of my brain.
When I came back in, I asked, "Hey... am I supposed to have been acting like... project lead-y for this whole project?"
He looked at me quizzically, and said "Well, yeah. We thought it'd be a good first experience for you, and..."
And I said, "Oh. Well that explains... things."
Oops. No wonder people keep asking me about my preferences for development minutiae. Hopefully, I haven't done too much abdication of the responsibility I didn't know I had.
Now, it isn't really anyone's fault but my own that I didn't realize this. I'm probably not project lead in the technical on-paper sense... I don't think the project has a lead in that sense. So the hundred or so times people have told me "this is your baby," it really should have sunk in that they weren't trying to get me to make it my pet project, but that they were telling me I'm sort of quasi-in-charge in a trying-the-junior-programmer-out-in-a-lead-capacity sort of way.
I seem to be doing a lot better so far, now that I know the score. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Other random tidbits: my cough is still with me, and I'm unable (or maybe unwilling) to push my voice much, so it basically means my range is currently reduced to about an octave (yuck!). But I'm going to go to guitar lesson anyway, because, if I only have them every other week, I'm going to need as many as possible before June.
My coworker asked me my preference on the thousandth little detail -- which machine's set of code should be considered the "canonical" one... how I wanted to transfer stuff from one place to another.. who should do the documentation, something like that. And I said "however you want to do it is fine with me," to which he replied, "this is your baby."
So I went outside to smoke, and a thought began scratching at the back of my brain.
When I came back in, I asked, "Hey... am I supposed to have been acting like... project lead-y for this whole project?"
He looked at me quizzically, and said "Well, yeah. We thought it'd be a good first experience for you, and..."
And I said, "Oh. Well that explains... things."
Oops. No wonder people keep asking me about my preferences for development minutiae. Hopefully, I haven't done too much abdication of the responsibility I didn't know I had.
Now, it isn't really anyone's fault but my own that I didn't realize this. I'm probably not project lead in the technical on-paper sense... I don't think the project has a lead in that sense. So the hundred or so times people have told me "this is your baby," it really should have sunk in that they weren't trying to get me to make it my pet project, but that they were telling me I'm sort of quasi-in-charge in a trying-the-junior-programmer-out-in-a-lead-capacity sort of way.
I seem to be doing a lot better so far, now that I know the score. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Other random tidbits: my cough is still with me, and I'm unable (or maybe unwilling) to push my voice much, so it basically means my range is currently reduced to about an octave (yuck!). But I'm going to go to guitar lesson anyway, because, if I only have them every other week, I'm going to need as many as possible before June.