Pictures and an update
Hey y'all! How's everyone doing? Life has been hectic around here. I'm on break from school for the week now (technically I was on break this past week too, but I still had discussion this week, so it's not officially considered break by Kaplan, but any length of time where I don't have to juggle any school work and family life I consider a break) so I am enjoying not having 36hrs worth of stuff to cram into 24....at least not until the new term starts on Wednesday ( May 12th). This term though, I'm only taking 6 credits instead of my usual 10-15, so that's gonna be a nice little break. I'm taking humanities this term and I can't say I'm really looking forward to it. I don't particularly like humanities; never have. I'll get through it though. It's only 10wks and once I get my A or B in it, then I won't ever have to do it again. lol I said I didn't like the subject in general, I didn't say I wasn't good at it.
It's been a bit of a rough week around here, I must admit. Last Wednesday, Matt's mom got rushed to the hospital when she collapsed in her kitchen. They did a CAT scan and found that she had a grade 5 subarachnoid hemorrhage. She had what FIL thought was a migraine right before the collapse, but we found out her "migraine" was actually a ruptured aneurysm. Apparently, she'd had the aneurysm for awhile but w/o showing any symptoms. Two days later, we got a call from FIL saying that MIL was going to die, they suspected within 24-48hrs. She died less than 9hrs later. The whole thing has been pretty tough on everyone, especially Sebastian (FIL), whose been spending a lot of time with us and Kasey. Today the funeral was scheduled for Friday. Having that put on the calendar is really difficult for Matt and I think the shock that his mom died is wearing off and the reality of the loss is setting in. Tonight, he cried like I've never seen before. I can actually count on one hand how many times I've seen him cry, and I've never seen him cry like this. I'm usually the one that falls apart and ceases to function; not him. To see someone I love more than anything hurting like that and to know that I can't do anything to fix it (and I would give my right arm to fix this for him), is one of the most helpless feelings I've ever had. All I can do is love him through this and be there to support him when he needs to cry, or talk, or just doesn't want to be alone. The funeral is going to be a really difficult day for him (for all four of them: Matt, Krystal, Kasey, and Sebastian, really but I'm most overtly concerned with my husband), and I just hope that I can be there for him in the way that he needs me to be. I'm having my own issues right now that are separate from this and he knows that. Part of me wishes that he didn't because, perhaps not having what is going on with me on his mind too, I feel like maybe that would make things a bit easier for him to deal with. I dunno, I just feel bad that he's going through all this right now and it's truly out of my/our control...all of it.
I don't particularly want to really go into my issues right now (that's all stuff that's really scary and I just don't want to think about what is actually happening and what still might happen), so let's just move on to a couple new pictures!
These were taken about a week ago (the baby turned 4wks on Saturday). The first one is Ryan sleeping (he's very chill like that a lot of the time, even when he's awake) and the second one is Ryan's first bottle. It's amazing how much he's changed in such a short period of time. I can't believe it's been a month since he was born already!
It's been a bit of a rough week around here, I must admit. Last Wednesday, Matt's mom got rushed to the hospital when she collapsed in her kitchen. They did a CAT scan and found that she had a grade 5 subarachnoid hemorrhage. She had what FIL thought was a migraine right before the collapse, but we found out her "migraine" was actually a ruptured aneurysm. Apparently, she'd had the aneurysm for awhile but w/o showing any symptoms. Two days later, we got a call from FIL saying that MIL was going to die, they suspected within 24-48hrs. She died less than 9hrs later. The whole thing has been pretty tough on everyone, especially Sebastian (FIL), whose been spending a lot of time with us and Kasey. Today the funeral was scheduled for Friday. Having that put on the calendar is really difficult for Matt and I think the shock that his mom died is wearing off and the reality of the loss is setting in. Tonight, he cried like I've never seen before. I can actually count on one hand how many times I've seen him cry, and I've never seen him cry like this. I'm usually the one that falls apart and ceases to function; not him. To see someone I love more than anything hurting like that and to know that I can't do anything to fix it (and I would give my right arm to fix this for him), is one of the most helpless feelings I've ever had. All I can do is love him through this and be there to support him when he needs to cry, or talk, or just doesn't want to be alone. The funeral is going to be a really difficult day for him (for all four of them: Matt, Krystal, Kasey, and Sebastian, really but I'm most overtly concerned with my husband), and I just hope that I can be there for him in the way that he needs me to be. I'm having my own issues right now that are separate from this and he knows that. Part of me wishes that he didn't because, perhaps not having what is going on with me on his mind too, I feel like maybe that would make things a bit easier for him to deal with. I dunno, I just feel bad that he's going through all this right now and it's truly out of my/our control...all of it.
I don't particularly want to really go into my issues right now (that's all stuff that's really scary and I just don't want to think about what is actually happening and what still might happen), so let's just move on to a couple new pictures!
These were taken about a week ago (the baby turned 4wks on Saturday). The first one is Ryan sleeping (he's very chill like that a lot of the time, even when he's awake) and the second one is Ryan's first bottle. It's amazing how much he's changed in such a short period of time. I can't believe it's been a month since he was born already!