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Is it enough to be happy with yourself?
I've been trying so hard to be okay, and putting in so much effort, to make sure I'm happy, and I truely like the person I am.
I feel that there is no one else who is willing to put so much effort into not being a selfish egosentric person, and I always care about other people.
I have all these good qualities and improvements, but something still makes me feel unreal and so distant from everyone else, and I dunno if thats just who I am.
I've realized that dwelling on things is a waste of energy, and I try to not dwell on things, and I always put things into perspective, some how something in me is wrong, and for once I can put my fingure one it.
but now I don't feel anything, and some how I'm okay with it.
I dont hurt as much, but now the word empty, is a totally new feeling than before.
There is no reason for me to be sad. I'm okay with how everything is in my life, except how I feel, beccause I never feel truely happy...or remotely happy.
Thursday-Sat I spent at Emilys, and it was really nice being able to talk to her. It was refreshing having her understand so much rather than most people who would be totally oblivious to what I was saying. People don't realize how smart she is...doesnt matter if she plays pokemon with me...were intellgent. I'm not even kidding. Im pretty sure she kept me sane though the weekend.
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
I've been trying so hard to be okay, and putting in so much effort, to make sure I'm happy, and I truely like the person I am.
I feel that there is no one else who is willing to put so much effort into not being a selfish egosentric person, and I always care about other people.
I have all these good qualities and improvements, but something still makes me feel unreal and so distant from everyone else, and I dunno if thats just who I am.
I've realized that dwelling on things is a waste of energy, and I try to not dwell on things, and I always put things into perspective, some how something in me is wrong, and for once I can put my fingure one it.
but now I don't feel anything, and some how I'm okay with it.
I dont hurt as much, but now the word empty, is a totally new feeling than before.
There is no reason for me to be sad. I'm okay with how everything is in my life, except how I feel, beccause I never feel truely happy...or remotely happy.
Thursday-Sat I spent at Emilys, and it was really nice being able to talk to her. It was refreshing having her understand so much rather than most people who would be totally oblivious to what I was saying. People don't realize how smart she is...doesnt matter if she plays pokemon with me...were intellgent. I'm not even kidding. Im pretty sure she kept me sane though the weekend.
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand