BLAH!

[paper_doll_slut]

I'm really worried about mom. Today was her first treatment. It's so weird. It's like until now it wasn't real. Everything went fine, and she told me every single deatil about it just like I knew she would. She feels fine. I just keep thinking about how when i was little i used to think about what my mom would do if she died. I would sit on the edge of her bed and smell this one sweater that she had. It was most black with birght colored shapes all over it. She doesn't have that sweater anymore.

I hate feeling like my best will never be good enough. Every aspect of my life is heading in that direction. Sure i can get by, but i always have.