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Being a circle entering a triangular door doesn't quite work out sometimes. Its hard to mold and shape into what people expect or want or need or trust. Wearing a sweater in a field full of shaven sheep; its quite possibly the itchiest sweater ever worn in the history of sweater kind. I kind of remember what sand feels like, when it runs through your fingers after you grab a whole chunk full from the beach. It falls back to the ground and blends in with all the rest of the sand, and you can't recognize not a single grain out of any type of unique quality. There's absolutely no difference. I haven't been to a place with sand in over ten years. REAL sand. Not dirt, sand. S A N D. It is time to see the world; to open your arms and embrace this beautiful gift of life no matter how shitty it may look or seem sometimes. I'm absolutely done trying to please, masking what I like, where I'm going, and what I'm doing. I can feel my brain starting to sag in the middle, just waiting to burst completely in half. I think this is what going insane feels like. Either that or slipping into alcoholism with nothing to grasp on to. Hearing different sounds and seeeing different monsters on a day to day basis really isn't as bad as you'd imagine. I've been scooting around and hanging out on clouds. I couldn't really tell you the last time I felt fresh thick green summer grass in between my toes. Mainly because its really uncomfortable a couple of minutes following. Last.fm, music forums, and La Blogotheque thanks. Thanks for supplying me with good interesting new tunes to listen to. I've become obsessed with finding something new. I want to see more movies; more WELL thought movies. Suggestions? SCHOOL school SCHOOL school SCHOOL s c h o o l. artphotographymusic (Have you noticed that's always expected in someone's interests?) "What are your interests" "Oh, I'm really into art, I like photography and blahbalh" "Oh, who's your favorite?" "Uhh... I like that guy that takes the B&W pictures..." "Mmmhm." I've covered ten thousand different subjects in the matter of a couple of minutes. Truly amazing.