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Click to viewwe had a service for my mom in the field where she rode her horse when she was a teenager. it was supposed to be a small service, like 20-30 people. over 300 people showed up. i sang this song during the service and i couldn't feel tears rolling down my cheeks because the wind licked them off. i left a little later and walked to a beach half an hour away. the water was completely calm and the sun was setting while i was sitting there alone. about 100 people from the service, people i had never met but who knew my mom, walked up and pushed little paper boats with candles out into the water. in that moment, the atoms in my body melted and milked into everything around me. i couldn't tell where my body started and ended and i keeled over crying. about 50 people i had never met before walked over and hugged me. suddenly, some wind kicked up and sprayed a wave on my legs and i woke up. it was dark and i was alone on a beach somewhere in central california, and there were some birds nearby.