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i watch the days pass me by and the happy faces are fading away. all these white rooms, bright lights and soft music. all those different voices saying the same exact thing. ive cried all my tears and all im left with is a still body and tired eyes. this hospital bed is lonely, but lonliness is nothing new. i will never wake up. maybe i dont even want to. this is all ive known, this is what comforts me becuase i know how everything ends and im happy knowing, even if the end is death. id rather know that then wonder if i will ever be loved, ever be happy. so tie my hands and legs to this white, silent bed and lock me away. stick needles in my arm and wisper goodnight for the last time.
i havent written something in a while. but i was bored at my dads this weekend so i started to write.
last night i hung out with you. even though u made me mad when u crushed all my cigs, it also made me happy. cause u always use to do shit like that to me. becuas u love me. last night things werent so weird as they have been for a while. maybe uve come to a realization. maybe uve made up ur mind. i dont know. but i know u love me. and thats all i need right now. i love you.
friday is the show and i cant wait. sd and tts are going to tear shit up.
mad love.
i havent written something in a while. but i was bored at my dads this weekend so i started to write.
last night i hung out with you. even though u made me mad when u crushed all my cigs, it also made me happy. cause u always use to do shit like that to me. becuas u love me. last night things werent so weird as they have been for a while. maybe uve come to a realization. maybe uve made up ur mind. i dont know. but i know u love me. and thats all i need right now. i love you.
friday is the show and i cant wait. sd and tts are going to tear shit up.
mad love.