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Hello good world. How are you? Im feeling pretty good... and sorry if that poem I wrote was intense. Im goign dress shopping today for the last dance. I really dont want to spend my money. haha im a cheapskate. Everyones like "lets rebel.. lets NOT dress up!" That is so rebel right there folks. lmao. Haaa. I think im back to my regular self though. I feel obsessed again! And it feels good. I jsut watched Ultimate Albums and the TRL thing. And it was like I looked at Billie for the first time again. I was like... *drool* my god... how could i have not wanted Green Day for a day? And then, when I heard Basketcase on Ultimate Albums.. i could just feel the excitement and obsession coursing through my veins. I was like.. ready to jump up and scream! I realized, I wouldnt be betraying my fanship if I dont listen to 9 CDs a night, or day. As long as I still know it and feel it, I have nothing to prove. I dont need to listen to all of them to feel like I am the best fan. I know it already. I was thinking a lot, and lately I have kinda been trying to be something Im not. I dont know how to explain it, but for those who know what Im talking about, it just passed over. I realized.. I dont need this to keep me going. Im going to always be myself and its gonna get me the farthest of all. I dont care about posers anymore. Their annoying, yes.. but I dont care. I know who I am, I know what kind of fan I am.. and I know that I dont need to be brought down by their "fandom," because once the "AI" wave blows over, Ill have them all to myself once again. And that my friends, will be pure bliss. Their all insecure prats with no excuse. If they want to think that "Billy Jo" is so sexy, let them think that. Let them see what it feels like to endure scowls. That will be their time to pay. I cant wish for it, if its gonna happen on its own. You know, ill come in highschool, and Ill see them around at football games, me bein myself, still obsessed, and Ill see them in their new band teeshirts. You know what, Ill just laugh. Ill look and laugh.. Ill think.. "i once knew them.. I knew them in their Green Day stage" I know Im being true to myself, so who the f cares? Whoa.. reflective!