Oct 27, 2007 16:07
today I came to another realization about myself.
yes, it's true.
I am a romantic, I've always known this.
The other bit is a resonance with nature, the natural world, the world we exist in and yet only find when away from the city, the town, the people.
This other world is always fully reciprocating the love I feel for it.
women nor men in my life have ever reciprocated love as fully as the natural world, the trees the birds the light the sand the crashing waves the details in feathers, flight, balance, width, color, size and shape.
however, this woman gives me enough insanity in love to want to drop everything in my life and run back to her. she doesn't know this. or maybe she does, and simply does not feel as fully in love as I.
another sad realization... love never gained, only believed to be at one time or another... in false light.
last thing he ever said to me, "you and your damned preconceived notions of love..."
yes, it's true. they are all notions without support in experience.
I can only dream about the day when love between two people (myself and another) becomes a reality, as I believe it can be. Until then it's me and the trees.
Glad there are so many to meet.