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i feel like i'm being pulled in a bunch of different directions, so many people to please. usually, i'm down-to-earth enough to handle it, but lately it's been kind of stressful. which makes college sound even more wonderful, the pressure of parents is probably the dominant force right now, with it being summer and me home. i think if i could take them out of the equation and an hour south of me, i'd be handling this with incredibly ease. i love 'em, but they seem to make everything more difficult.
but hey, it's SUMMER! and we have so much to do. i really want to spend time with the people i didn't see much during the school year, repair and nourish some relationships i've been neglecting. help? yes. that'd be nice. i miss last year's summer nights, with walks and board games and indoor sparklers and underwear and broken toes on trampolines and whatnot. we need to do this allllll over again but better, 'cause we're seniors. and we have a year and change left here together, so we should definitely make the most of it, despite all the incredible shit that's happened to all of us over the past couple years. we've been together for years, some of us for over a decade, and i want to be able to miss everyone, not be happy to escape.
i have no idea what brought on this sudden bought of iron will and optimism, maybe it's workout endorphins, but i don't think i'll change my mind. actually, i've been thinking about it all day. and how our last year together, i want to become more mature, patient and sensitive. god knows that'll be hard, but my innate insensitivy has recently unintentionally led to hurt people and lost respect for me.
so, if i do that again, someone hit me. please.
now, i'm going to go eat cake to reward myself for burning some fat.
but hey, it's SUMMER! and we have so much to do. i really want to spend time with the people i didn't see much during the school year, repair and nourish some relationships i've been neglecting. help? yes. that'd be nice. i miss last year's summer nights, with walks and board games and indoor sparklers and underwear and broken toes on trampolines and whatnot. we need to do this allllll over again but better, 'cause we're seniors. and we have a year and change left here together, so we should definitely make the most of it, despite all the incredible shit that's happened to all of us over the past couple years. we've been together for years, some of us for over a decade, and i want to be able to miss everyone, not be happy to escape.
i have no idea what brought on this sudden bought of iron will and optimism, maybe it's workout endorphins, but i don't think i'll change my mind. actually, i've been thinking about it all day. and how our last year together, i want to become more mature, patient and sensitive. god knows that'll be hard, but my innate insensitivy has recently unintentionally led to hurt people and lost respect for me.
so, if i do that again, someone hit me. please.
now, i'm going to go eat cake to reward myself for burning some fat.