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We had hours and hours at his house today with no parents and I didn't do anything about it. We listened to music and read and he did flips and pushups and shit and we had our usual bouts of fight-cuddling. On the bus he leaned over and whispered into my ear that he thought I was an above-average person. Great? The thing is I'm scared and I don't want it enough. We're on completely different wave-lengths. Sometimes he is just too much like a little boy for me. There are so many things that he does that I hate. Sometimes they're endearing but mostly they just piss me off. That won't work! I should stop shamelessly flirting with him if I feel like this.
I want someone big and sturdy. I want someone who can be real quiet and mellow sometimes and other times can be up on the same high-energy and silliness level as me and someone who I'm really physically attracted to, someone who makes me so horny it hurts. Jesus fucking christ, have you ever felt like that? I have. It is AMAZING. I would question my body's inabilities if I found a man who could make me feel like that. I want someone with experience! I want someone who can make me feel good in every way! I want to fall for someone and be completely enthralled and not think about the past and always be comparing it with that or be wondering whether it's real or not! Oooh and I want someone who will hold my hand and cuddle and kiss me in public!
Guys! I think I am getting bolder. I have started talking to more strangers, kind of. Hopefully I will see some pretty boy (who is my age...) and I'll have the courage to talk to him and we will click and oh my gosh.
Yeah. There are way too many possibilities to get into a relationship that I think would feel sort of like a trap.
I want someone big and sturdy. I want someone who can be real quiet and mellow sometimes and other times can be up on the same high-energy and silliness level as me and someone who I'm really physically attracted to, someone who makes me so horny it hurts. Jesus fucking christ, have you ever felt like that? I have. It is AMAZING. I would question my body's inabilities if I found a man who could make me feel like that. I want someone with experience! I want someone who can make me feel good in every way! I want to fall for someone and be completely enthralled and not think about the past and always be comparing it with that or be wondering whether it's real or not! Oooh and I want someone who will hold my hand and cuddle and kiss me in public!
Guys! I think I am getting bolder. I have started talking to more strangers, kind of. Hopefully I will see some pretty boy (who is my age...) and I'll have the courage to talk to him and we will click and oh my gosh.
Yeah. There are way too many possibilities to get into a relationship that I think would feel sort of like a trap.