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i still hurt. just leave me alone--you think it's so easy for me--you think the pain rests solely on ur shoulders, you think this, you think that.....
it's too much to handle--and i can no longer deal w/ it.
i feel it too--only more. b/c i actually have somewhat of a thoughtfulness about me which concerns a care for the people around me and not the things my life is accompanied by. try that on for size.
just leave me alone--let me move on. this constant shuffle into the past drives me further and further beyond the point where you can even reach to within an inch of me...
i strive on intimacy--intimacy in relationships with my loved ones, my friends, my job, my studies--and you are just no longer included as an option--these other areas are much more important. I can no longer allow myself to let you in, only to be knocked back down once i realize how much of a mistake it was to allow you to become a part of my life again.
Selfish. A simple adjective, yet a complete description of your marred self and general attitude towards everything and everyone in your life. it's funny how life works. You spend so much time trying to conceal the fact that you have your own agenda. All of the pats on the back, all of the special gifts, everything---were only for your own good. It was time and money spent only to seal the fate that you've always wanted---and i'm too good for that.
i'm too good for you.
i'm done.
i quit.
we're done.
we're through.
go away
and leave me alone.
someday when i see you in your petty world of conceited bliss, i will smile. because i will turn and look at the life i hold. i will stare back at it and realize how truly happy i am and where i would have been had i taken the road that lead to nowhere.
the road leading to YOU.
it's too much to handle--and i can no longer deal w/ it.
i feel it too--only more. b/c i actually have somewhat of a thoughtfulness about me which concerns a care for the people around me and not the things my life is accompanied by. try that on for size.
just leave me alone--let me move on. this constant shuffle into the past drives me further and further beyond the point where you can even reach to within an inch of me...
i strive on intimacy--intimacy in relationships with my loved ones, my friends, my job, my studies--and you are just no longer included as an option--these other areas are much more important. I can no longer allow myself to let you in, only to be knocked back down once i realize how much of a mistake it was to allow you to become a part of my life again.
Selfish. A simple adjective, yet a complete description of your marred self and general attitude towards everything and everyone in your life. it's funny how life works. You spend so much time trying to conceal the fact that you have your own agenda. All of the pats on the back, all of the special gifts, everything---were only for your own good. It was time and money spent only to seal the fate that you've always wanted---and i'm too good for that.
i'm too good for you.
i'm done.
i quit.
we're done.
we're through.
go away
and leave me alone.
someday when i see you in your petty world of conceited bliss, i will smile. because i will turn and look at the life i hold. i will stare back at it and realize how truly happy i am and where i would have been had i taken the road that lead to nowhere.
the road leading to YOU.