Could my life please start now?
I'm sick of everything being on hold. I want things to GO.
I'm so over-anxious about getting going with my online classes that I've ordered a textbook. Even though my loans haven't gone through and my class won't start until Dec 1.
I've worked for my new job without being trained, having my tax forms filled out, or actually getting an offer of employment. Tomorrow, I'm going to juggle pestering the "wrong manager" about the computer training with an interview for an additional seasonal job. I just want it all to start.
And... my personal life feels much the same way. Like somehow I'm waiting to stop -- I can't even articulate -- to stop ... waiting for celebration and love, and just be there. Get out of second gear. To have a home. A family. Belong. Stop fighting.
My god, for any of these.... when? When?
I'm so over-anxious about getting going with my online classes that I've ordered a textbook. Even though my loans haven't gone through and my class won't start until Dec 1.
I've worked for my new job without being trained, having my tax forms filled out, or actually getting an offer of employment. Tomorrow, I'm going to juggle pestering the "wrong manager" about the computer training with an interview for an additional seasonal job. I just want it all to start.
And... my personal life feels much the same way. Like somehow I'm waiting to stop -- I can't even articulate -- to stop ... waiting for celebration and love, and just be there. Get out of second gear. To have a home. A family. Belong. Stop fighting.
My god, for any of these.... when? When?