My Badass Katana
I was always had depended on my emotions to be the crux and the spark to my decisions. I mean it feels good and feels right to hinge on whatever you're feeling to judge your actions. What more, I've been chancing upon articles that has reiterated my view of this. But today really made me crack my head about seriously mending this already inbuilt mentality within me. Today has got to be the most suckiest day of my life. If not, at least the worst during my term in NS.
It's just one of those days where someone up the rank and file either didn't get his fix from his wife last night or one of his children came home drunk last night, decided to vent his frustrations on someone down the chain and the domino effect follows. That isn't the essence story. So the whole day everyone kept lashing out on people below them and everyone who were affected, reflected the colour of the skies.
Back to emotions, today, everyone was full of it. Mainly anger. I usually feel powerful ( strangely so) when I'm angry but it only made me weak and tired. And the whole day, following the aforementioned chain, I kept blaming my men for giving me a lot of stuff to shit in my pants abt. But I decided, since I was such a responsible sergeant (HA!), i decided to sit everyone down and share a few pointers to help everyone's day a wee bit happier. Everyone got less tense and felt better after objectively thinking through things.
My point is that Emotions, is a double edged katana that'll kill zombies at a slice. It's that badass. Essentially, emotions make you blind. But being blind isn't necessarily bad or entirely good ( that's where this katana comes in). Emotions blinding you helps trust your gut feeling at instances where you thought you wouldn't. Be it love, anger, hurt, disappointment, happiness, apathy. Being blind makes trust yourself and yourself only. Great things can be achieved when you're blind. The blindside ( HAHAHA GEDDIT!? BLIND, BLINDSIDE?) is that it makes you worse if you can't trust yourself. Or rather when you know you should trust yourself instead of fickle emotions. And we all know that the sad songs play whenever you decide to let emotions get the better of you.
I suppose it's a skill to know when to appropriately use it since it's supposedly interchangeable like that. It's probably like learning how to kill with a katana instead of killing yourself with your weapon. But this is worse. You won't even know how much damage it's done for a while.
Prahblem. How sia!
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