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((October 20th))
[hexed to LVS members]
I've been working on trying to find my Patronus. I don't understand why it's so difficult. Finding a happy memory shouldn't be so hard, right?
But every memory I have of happiness is either something with my parents or Draco, and that knowledge alone makes the happy thoughts poof away.
I hate this. I hate realizing that life isn't simple.[/hex]
[hexed to everyone else]
I am sick of school. I want to get out of here. But where would I go?
Blaise.
I did it. I wrote the letter to Draco. And I am so scared. I don't know why but it was like all of a sudden I didn't know who was anymore once I was no longer "Draco Malfoy's Girlfriend". Or, rather, who I am now that I'm not his girlfriend.
I don't know what to do. He said something about the future he had seen slipping away, and it was just...I get the sense that he's upset, but what do I know? He never talked to me--really talked to me--anyway.
I just need someone to talk to. And I need help discovering who I am. Because no matter how sure I sounded in my letter, I have no idea where I'm going.
~Pansy~
[hexed to LVS members]
I've been working on trying to find my Patronus. I don't understand why it's so difficult. Finding a happy memory shouldn't be so hard, right?
But every memory I have of happiness is either something with my parents or Draco, and that knowledge alone makes the happy thoughts poof away.
I hate this. I hate realizing that life isn't simple.[/hex]
[hexed to everyone else]
I am sick of school. I want to get out of here. But where would I go?
Blaise.
I did it. I wrote the letter to Draco. And I am so scared. I don't know why but it was like all of a sudden I didn't know who was anymore once I was no longer "Draco Malfoy's Girlfriend". Or, rather, who I am now that I'm not his girlfriend.
I don't know what to do. He said something about the future he had seen slipping away, and it was just...I get the sense that he's upset, but what do I know? He never talked to me--really talked to me--anyway.
I just need someone to talk to. And I need help discovering who I am. Because no matter how sure I sounded in my letter, I have no idea where I'm going.
~Pansy~