I'm not the same
Bah. I'm tired today. I went to work knowing that I still have a job. Yay me. I really didn't feel like looking for a job this early in the summer considering that I need to start saving for the fall semester. My weekend was cool and it was nice to have some party/family time. Yesterday I went with the parental units and my sisters kids to see Over the Hedge. It was cute movie and I'll probably buy it when it comes out on dvd. Before that one of my cousin came over to talk to my parents. She's going through a break up right now and it's been very hard on her. They were engaged and then he breaks up with her on a text message. What a dickhead.
My cousin is in her early 30s and is fairly successful. She's been married once and then after that she found this other asshole. I never really liked him because he never gave me a good vibe. Anyway, she comes over to talk to my parents about the way she's been feeling. I just sat and let them talk to her, that was, until something my mom said rubbed me the wrong way. She said something to the effect that my cousin needs to move on. True, she does and I'm not disagreeing with my mom. The thing is that my parents have been married for nearly 30 years. Neither one of them know what it's like to be single. I brought that to my mom's attention and she just sat and listened to what I had to say. You would think that as a single woman the world would be your oyster. Nope. Society looks at single women as failures no matter how much professional success they may have. My cousin has both a BA and a master's degree and yet she can't seem to find anyone to share her life with. Then my cousin brought up a point, she's single because it's slim pickings out there.
I agree. I don't think that I've become bitter towards relationships. I would love to find a special man to share my life with, however, trying to find the kind of man I want in my life is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. I refuse to settle for less than the best and I know that my cousin is the same way. I don't feel sympathy for my cousin, I feel empathy. Lucas and I never were engaged but I know how alone and scared she feels. My cousin is a serious relationship person so she's never been through the whole "fun phase" that I went through that has recently lost it's appeal to me. It's very strange because my cousin's ordeal has made me think of all the pain that I went through when I was going through my break up. I still think of Lucas sometimes and every now and then I'll cry mostly because I miss him. I've met people recently but no one worth falling for. I've become hard to impress these days and that's because I know now that I'm worth so much more than what I thought I was. Eventually I know my cousin will come to the same conclusion. It's just a long, stressing process.
My cousin is in her early 30s and is fairly successful. She's been married once and then after that she found this other asshole. I never really liked him because he never gave me a good vibe. Anyway, she comes over to talk to my parents about the way she's been feeling. I just sat and let them talk to her, that was, until something my mom said rubbed me the wrong way. She said something to the effect that my cousin needs to move on. True, she does and I'm not disagreeing with my mom. The thing is that my parents have been married for nearly 30 years. Neither one of them know what it's like to be single. I brought that to my mom's attention and she just sat and listened to what I had to say. You would think that as a single woman the world would be your oyster. Nope. Society looks at single women as failures no matter how much professional success they may have. My cousin has both a BA and a master's degree and yet she can't seem to find anyone to share her life with. Then my cousin brought up a point, she's single because it's slim pickings out there.
I agree. I don't think that I've become bitter towards relationships. I would love to find a special man to share my life with, however, trying to find the kind of man I want in my life is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. I refuse to settle for less than the best and I know that my cousin is the same way. I don't feel sympathy for my cousin, I feel empathy. Lucas and I never were engaged but I know how alone and scared she feels. My cousin is a serious relationship person so she's never been through the whole "fun phase" that I went through that has recently lost it's appeal to me. It's very strange because my cousin's ordeal has made me think of all the pain that I went through when I was going through my break up. I still think of Lucas sometimes and every now and then I'll cry mostly because I miss him. I've met people recently but no one worth falling for. I've become hard to impress these days and that's because I know now that I'm worth so much more than what I thought I was. Eventually I know my cousin will come to the same conclusion. It's just a long, stressing process.