And then I realise. I'm going home.
Well today sucked. Third day in a row of doing practically no work for college - I'm so tired! I don't know what's going on. I eat too much during the day just now, especially baked and chewy sweets.
College was good today - pottery and sculpture! I <3 ceramics, it's brilliant. I'm actually thinking of exploring it further, the tutor was telling us about her education today. She's lovely, and she reminds me of a pigeon, haha. Her best advice was that if we pursue a career in pottery we'd better marry someone with lots of money. =D
I finished off my pot and low relief sculpture, and I'm pretty satisfied with them. Me and Zanne made a multitude of tiny pinch pots, which was lots of fun - we're going to keep going to the ceramics workshop in our spare time to build things, because it's great, and the course doesn't do ceramics after Block 1. =( I'm getting a bit sick of hearing Ryan's praises as always, he's just too good at everything! It doesn't annoy the hell out of me like it used to, but it's still a bit depressing, and I know it's not nice to be jealous like that. I just wish I could do something to make people go "wow". Apart from write, which I'm not ready for quite yet (I'm going to write something amazing). I've done a pretty good painting of a skull, but I doubt that'll help in my course work. I just love bones. =)
After a day of drawing and sculpting and eating lots of confection, Zanne, Charlotte and I stayed an extra half hour to make More Pinch Pots! Then the three of us went to Wetherspoons pub for dinner, which was brilliantly random. We're getting to know each other quite well now. Charlotte is from London (but she sounds Glaswegian), and she drinks way too much. Zanne's family are half Deutch and half Irish, she spent the last two years in Germany, she's taking prozac for depression and she seems to be not-quite-over her ex-bf, who she mentions every so often. I feel all strange about her now, because there's no real hope of us going out, and I don't really want a relationship. But I want to be close to her, as much as possible without sex. Just someone to talk to and such. I don't really want sex now. Hmm. The three of us are going out again after the October break, to a Sex Pistols tribute gig and a Halloween Party - now That will be fun! And we're going to watch Superted together. Lol, it's like being back in second year, hanging around with Catherine and Eilidh. Except this time I'm happy.
The psychiatrist hasn't phoned me back to arrange for a chat, and I'm not sure what to do about that. I also have to phone work tomorrow and say I can't work saturday, because I'm going to spend the day with Nathania, who I haven't seen in over 18 months, and who I won't see for awhile longer. I could say I'm going to a funeral or something, but I don't want to lie. =( Gah.
I'm off to watch Lost now, as much as it bugs me. Nighty night!
College was good today - pottery and sculpture! I <3 ceramics, it's brilliant. I'm actually thinking of exploring it further, the tutor was telling us about her education today. She's lovely, and she reminds me of a pigeon, haha. Her best advice was that if we pursue a career in pottery we'd better marry someone with lots of money. =D
I finished off my pot and low relief sculpture, and I'm pretty satisfied with them. Me and Zanne made a multitude of tiny pinch pots, which was lots of fun - we're going to keep going to the ceramics workshop in our spare time to build things, because it's great, and the course doesn't do ceramics after Block 1. =( I'm getting a bit sick of hearing Ryan's praises as always, he's just too good at everything! It doesn't annoy the hell out of me like it used to, but it's still a bit depressing, and I know it's not nice to be jealous like that. I just wish I could do something to make people go "wow". Apart from write, which I'm not ready for quite yet (I'm going to write something amazing). I've done a pretty good painting of a skull, but I doubt that'll help in my course work. I just love bones. =)
After a day of drawing and sculpting and eating lots of confection, Zanne, Charlotte and I stayed an extra half hour to make More Pinch Pots! Then the three of us went to Wetherspoons pub for dinner, which was brilliantly random. We're getting to know each other quite well now. Charlotte is from London (but she sounds Glaswegian), and she drinks way too much. Zanne's family are half Deutch and half Irish, she spent the last two years in Germany, she's taking prozac for depression and she seems to be not-quite-over her ex-bf, who she mentions every so often. I feel all strange about her now, because there's no real hope of us going out, and I don't really want a relationship. But I want to be close to her, as much as possible without sex. Just someone to talk to and such. I don't really want sex now. Hmm. The three of us are going out again after the October break, to a Sex Pistols tribute gig and a Halloween Party - now That will be fun! And we're going to watch Superted together. Lol, it's like being back in second year, hanging around with Catherine and Eilidh. Except this time I'm happy.
The psychiatrist hasn't phoned me back to arrange for a chat, and I'm not sure what to do about that. I also have to phone work tomorrow and say I can't work saturday, because I'm going to spend the day with Nathania, who I haven't seen in over 18 months, and who I won't see for awhile longer. I could say I'm going to a funeral or something, but I don't want to lie. =( Gah.
I'm off to watch Lost now, as much as it bugs me. Nighty night!