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Things have been going in weird circles during this fall. Mostly life's been the same as always before, but at the same time it's been extremely different from the usual. There are quite a few big things in my life currently that keep my lil' head twisting and turning uncontrollably.
First of all, work. I loved my work a lot, things were good and I got to do a lot of other things than just nursing. But earlier this fall we were announced that due to the depression and savings needed to be done within the hospital, our ward would turn into a weekly ward. This means first of all that work will be from Monday to Friday every week, no weekends. This was a pretty big blow as I've enjoyed working in a 3 shift job, where I get to do weekends and take my days off whenever the work schedule says so. The other thing it naturally affects is that without weekends, there won't be any extra pay for losing the Sundays and Saturdays.
With this change I could still live, there'd be nights and evenings even still, but yesterday we were announced that we'd have 2 people doing nightshifts all together, nobody else. And this was the biggest blow I really could take. I love doing nightshifts plus on top of everything, the pay for doing them is really good compared to crap mornings.
So the big thing is now, do I want to go hunting for a different job or stay where I am now. The good thing about working in a big organization like an university hospital is that I can ask to be transferred to a different unit since I've got a permanent contract. This of course does not necessarily work out for the best, I don't know what the options I have within the Oulu university hospital are... The other option is I could completely move to a different town and start looking for a job there, ditching my permanent job. With the lack of male nurses I have a lot of options fortunately. But it's never easy changing jobs and being completely clueless about most of the other wards within the hospital doesn't help.
2nd thing that has been bugging my mind lately. Is a relationship. I started "Dating" 6 months ago, and have been keeping in contact with this guy since then. The problematic part is, that I don't exactly feel like settling down, or being in a proper relationship. I've been emphasizing it to him from the very beginning. I do not want to start worrying about other peoples schedules, I don't want to be together all the time and I definitely don't want to start thinking about living together. He on the other hand is much more enthusiastic about these things and I am constantly in a dilemma about how to express my thoughts without hurting his feelings. Basically the needs are completely different and it's getting on my nerves. I like him, but I like my free time and freedom the most. I'm probably not one to settle down at all in this stage of my life.
I hate relationships.... And as amusing it is, it wasn't that long ago that I figured that I need a relationship. Grass is greener and all that shit. Seriously I'm too indicisive.
Fuck this, I'll just start drinking although I got work in the morning.
First of all, work. I loved my work a lot, things were good and I got to do a lot of other things than just nursing. But earlier this fall we were announced that due to the depression and savings needed to be done within the hospital, our ward would turn into a weekly ward. This means first of all that work will be from Monday to Friday every week, no weekends. This was a pretty big blow as I've enjoyed working in a 3 shift job, where I get to do weekends and take my days off whenever the work schedule says so. The other thing it naturally affects is that without weekends, there won't be any extra pay for losing the Sundays and Saturdays.
With this change I could still live, there'd be nights and evenings even still, but yesterday we were announced that we'd have 2 people doing nightshifts all together, nobody else. And this was the biggest blow I really could take. I love doing nightshifts plus on top of everything, the pay for doing them is really good compared to crap mornings.
So the big thing is now, do I want to go hunting for a different job or stay where I am now. The good thing about working in a big organization like an university hospital is that I can ask to be transferred to a different unit since I've got a permanent contract. This of course does not necessarily work out for the best, I don't know what the options I have within the Oulu university hospital are... The other option is I could completely move to a different town and start looking for a job there, ditching my permanent job. With the lack of male nurses I have a lot of options fortunately. But it's never easy changing jobs and being completely clueless about most of the other wards within the hospital doesn't help.
2nd thing that has been bugging my mind lately. Is a relationship. I started "Dating" 6 months ago, and have been keeping in contact with this guy since then. The problematic part is, that I don't exactly feel like settling down, or being in a proper relationship. I've been emphasizing it to him from the very beginning. I do not want to start worrying about other peoples schedules, I don't want to be together all the time and I definitely don't want to start thinking about living together. He on the other hand is much more enthusiastic about these things and I am constantly in a dilemma about how to express my thoughts without hurting his feelings. Basically the needs are completely different and it's getting on my nerves. I like him, but I like my free time and freedom the most. I'm probably not one to settle down at all in this stage of my life.
I hate relationships.... And as amusing it is, it wasn't that long ago that I figured that I need a relationship. Grass is greener and all that shit. Seriously I'm too indicisive.
Fuck this, I'll just start drinking although I got work in the morning.