to my sweetheart the drunk
it's 2:30 in the morning and you're leaving for arizona in 2 and a half hours. you'll be on the bus for 8 more hours and then you'll be in the desert, far away from me, for a week more or less; six days exactly. numbers are what i'm thinking about right now. we have, at best, 6 more days together before your move, and after that, easily a year and change before i can move north without having to change my career plans.
it's only been 28 hours since i left saw you and i miss you so much that it's making me dizzy, i think.
and yet, i think we can make it two months, and the two months after that, and the two months after that, and so on. the reason i think this is because i miss you so much that i know i have to do everything in my power to not lose you. if it comes to it i will move to seattle and try to find work. this is a promise from me to you. that is, if you truly don't think you can handle it, i will make sure you don't have to. you know, you're my everything, and the more i think about it the more i realize that i need you more than i've ever needed anything before.
i'm so selfish to think about it this way. you don't really need me, and the fact is you could probably get along without me more capably than i could get along without you, but i can only hope and wish that you hold my love as close to you as i hold yours to me
or something like that anyways
i wrote something when i first realized that i needed you. you're not ever going to read it. but, it had a good line in it - the last line, actually:
i hope that i can make you happy
when you smile i know that life is worth living. nothing else in this world gives me that feeling. nothing else does what you do for me.
i wonder, sometimes, if i'm not loving you enough. so, i try to love you more.
it's only been 28 hours since i left saw you and i miss you so much that it's making me dizzy, i think.
and yet, i think we can make it two months, and the two months after that, and the two months after that, and so on. the reason i think this is because i miss you so much that i know i have to do everything in my power to not lose you. if it comes to it i will move to seattle and try to find work. this is a promise from me to you. that is, if you truly don't think you can handle it, i will make sure you don't have to. you know, you're my everything, and the more i think about it the more i realize that i need you more than i've ever needed anything before.
i'm so selfish to think about it this way. you don't really need me, and the fact is you could probably get along without me more capably than i could get along without you, but i can only hope and wish that you hold my love as close to you as i hold yours to me
or something like that anyways
i wrote something when i first realized that i needed you. you're not ever going to read it. but, it had a good line in it - the last line, actually:
i hope that i can make you happy
when you smile i know that life is worth living. nothing else in this world gives me that feeling. nothing else does what you do for me.
i wonder, sometimes, if i'm not loving you enough. so, i try to love you more.