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i don't post very much anymore.
its kind of tied in to having a girlfriend i think, working full time, living out of home... I feel like i don't even exist anymore, like my soul has departed my body and i have continued to live through pure inertia. I feel some kind of obligation to update you on the minute facts of my life. I'm going back to uni to study business, switching to part time work and as a result most likely I will be forced to move back home. Which I'm alright with. I'm sort of sick of my room mate spending all his time on the couch with the zombie game volume turned up to 11, forcing me hide in my room with my headphones on. Plus my girlfriend hardly ever comes over because she feels like she's intruding. I only really moved out so we'd have our own space and she doesn't want to use it.
I'm cooking her a big fancy dinner tomorrow night as a last ditch effort to win her heart. She's getting bored of me, I can feel it. She feels the love dying and she blames me because its all she knows to do. She'll cancel her plans with me to hang out with her work friends and then, at the end of the week, accuse me of not taking an interest and being satisfied hardly ever seeing her. Its only just dawned on me that maybe we won't be together forever. I'd kind of like it if we were together forever. I love her so much.
I had a dream the other day, that my grandfather called from beyond the grave to tell us that he was okay. I haven't passed the message on to mum like he asked, but its very hard to find a right moment to do so.
so i am really very excited about going back to uni, but I feel like I'm at another crossroads. Or more like, after resting in a strange, uncomfortable town for the past two years, I have decided to get back to my long hard hike home, and who knows how hard its going to be? i don't know who'll come with me, and I don't have the faintest idea where I'm really going
its kind of tied in to having a girlfriend i think, working full time, living out of home... I feel like i don't even exist anymore, like my soul has departed my body and i have continued to live through pure inertia. I feel some kind of obligation to update you on the minute facts of my life. I'm going back to uni to study business, switching to part time work and as a result most likely I will be forced to move back home. Which I'm alright with. I'm sort of sick of my room mate spending all his time on the couch with the zombie game volume turned up to 11, forcing me hide in my room with my headphones on. Plus my girlfriend hardly ever comes over because she feels like she's intruding. I only really moved out so we'd have our own space and she doesn't want to use it.
I'm cooking her a big fancy dinner tomorrow night as a last ditch effort to win her heart. She's getting bored of me, I can feel it. She feels the love dying and she blames me because its all she knows to do. She'll cancel her plans with me to hang out with her work friends and then, at the end of the week, accuse me of not taking an interest and being satisfied hardly ever seeing her. Its only just dawned on me that maybe we won't be together forever. I'd kind of like it if we were together forever. I love her so much.
I had a dream the other day, that my grandfather called from beyond the grave to tell us that he was okay. I haven't passed the message on to mum like he asked, but its very hard to find a right moment to do so.
so i am really very excited about going back to uni, but I feel like I'm at another crossroads. Or more like, after resting in a strange, uncomfortable town for the past two years, I have decided to get back to my long hard hike home, and who knows how hard its going to be? i don't know who'll come with me, and I don't have the faintest idea where I'm really going