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I feel really shitty about what happened on Friday. I sent an email to J kinda half-apologising about it. I didn't really want to apologise, because I'm not actually all that sorry or regretful about the whole affair, I'm just upset that I might loose friends through this.
I sent one to Nick too... kinda half-sorry too. But again, I don't really feel sorry about it. I don't know what to do really. I guess the way forward is to sit it out and see what J does. If he wants to speak to me, then a reply to that message would be the next step. I know he's read it, because in the out box it says 'Read' next to the message... Nick hasn't read his.
I tried to text J, but he hasn't replied to that either.
I'm worried about this.
In other news I think my birthday is going to be shit. It's tomorrow, but I only started my real recruitment for it about 2 hours ago. Together with my disorganisation, I think another factor adding the the shit-factor will be the whole affore-mentioned affair. Really putting a downer on the occasion.
And my parents just got back from Hong Kong tonight. Apparently they've bought me some cool stuff for my birthday. They bought me an ace Paul Frank watch. It's got a massive silver face and a black strap. But that's not for my birthday...
Shit. I'm really worried. I don't know what to do. I think J's blocked me on MSN too. Fuck. Shit.