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Do you ever just sit there at night and contemplate how the smallest of actions, the most insignificant of hesitations, the very randomness of life itself has somehow led you down the path to where your life is at today?
I sit here tonight, thinking about some of the small things that I have said, thought, and done recently...not knowing at that time how much they would have an effect on my life later. The hesitations of a few seconds, a few days longer, can have a drastic impact on your life.
It continues to baffle and amaze me at how completely random and unpredictable our lives are. Once you think you have things planned out completely, something happens that totally changes the way you view things and the way you live your life. You didn't ask for it, but it happened, nonetheless.
I guess that's part of the beauty of life...the raw appeal of not knowing what is coming next, not knowing how to plan for tomorrow. Life keeps you on your toes, and if you're not always on the ready, it will set you on your ass.
Most of all, life is the ultimate teacher, the ultimate revealer. If you wait long enough, you can find the answers to most of your questions through the experiences of your life. Life and time reveals a great deal about the people you encounter everyday...whether they will be there tomorrow, whether they will stand by you. Most of all, you learn about the kind of person that you are, for better or for worse.
How did I get to this point in my life? What would have happened if I stayed an hour longer, if I had said something sooner, if I hadn't happened to stumble across things on accident? How would my life be different today? How would I, as a person, be different today? More importantly, would I WANT it to be different?
Not a chance.
This is my life.
This is who I am.
I sit here tonight, thinking about some of the small things that I have said, thought, and done recently...not knowing at that time how much they would have an effect on my life later. The hesitations of a few seconds, a few days longer, can have a drastic impact on your life.
It continues to baffle and amaze me at how completely random and unpredictable our lives are. Once you think you have things planned out completely, something happens that totally changes the way you view things and the way you live your life. You didn't ask for it, but it happened, nonetheless.
I guess that's part of the beauty of life...the raw appeal of not knowing what is coming next, not knowing how to plan for tomorrow. Life keeps you on your toes, and if you're not always on the ready, it will set you on your ass.
Most of all, life is the ultimate teacher, the ultimate revealer. If you wait long enough, you can find the answers to most of your questions through the experiences of your life. Life and time reveals a great deal about the people you encounter everyday...whether they will be there tomorrow, whether they will stand by you. Most of all, you learn about the kind of person that you are, for better or for worse.
How did I get to this point in my life? What would have happened if I stayed an hour longer, if I had said something sooner, if I hadn't happened to stumble across things on accident? How would my life be different today? How would I, as a person, be different today? More importantly, would I WANT it to be different?
Not a chance.
This is my life.
This is who I am.