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[pantomime_lover]

I can't recall the last time I've been this sick. I have a 104 fever and I puked all last night and this morning. It sucks. I just got out of bed for the first time today, with my luck I managed to get sick on the prettiest day we've had in a long time, or atleast that's what I was told. Oh well. I haven't updated this in a long time. Life has been normal I suppose, I don't really remember. I don't have piano tonite and that makes me happy. I see lots of spots. Every sentence in this entry begins with I. THe stars are out tonite, I wish I could supress my vomit long enough to go outside with my telescope and look at them. I'm going back to see the orchestra sometime in the near future, I don't care if I have to go by myself, I'm going. I'm gettin drunk with Erynn on Sunday. This could quite be the most random entry ever. I'm so delirious, things are just popping into my head and I'm typing them. The other night I wrote this... Dan and Ashling liked it a lot, so I'll post it for them.
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its been four weeks and six days since i last
counted the rain drops distilling on your figure
comoflauging your tears in which ill share unwillingly
as the streetlight caught the ribbons in your eyes.

life was rekindled that frigid november morning
when under morning stars
we succumbed to all the moments lost
and composed our symphony which only we could comprehend.

i still quiver under your hands on my cold frame
five weeks later i look for your face
but i don't see you anywhere
i can't find you anymore.
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I'm ready for the beach again. I wish there was fireworks in the winter time.