Craziness X 10 Ninjas.
Apparently my nerves have gotten worse. I've gotten to a point of complete and total sensitivity, whereas every sound,touch, or scent will shut down my body. I seriously need help. My headaches have gotten worse, and I don't even know why I'm still awake to write this.
Just to illustrate how screwed up everything has gotten, I finally convinced my mother to let me see a doctor. The appointment was planned and everything and we had to postpone it because my niece, who just turned 30 in November may have had a minor heart attack. She was at work [Teaching] and suddenly her chest, back and arms just starting hurting. It's extremely insane, she's probably the healthiest person in our family, she taught a fitness class for a few years, and suddenly bam. She seems to be doing alright now, but it's like...o_0. This being the same niece that had her credit cards stolen last month. Then comes to realization that she's only 9 years older than myself which makes me even MORE eager to get this whole stress thing settled.
I just need a looong break away from life. It's just getting to be too much, the hatred the breeds in my family is uncanny. Everyone hates one another. I cannot begin to tell you how many dinners have been filled with nothing but negative back-talk and such. I seriously don't know what to do anymore, there honestly is NO escape. No rooms to hide out in, no places I can go outside of my home...
I'm pathetic.
Just to illustrate how screwed up everything has gotten, I finally convinced my mother to let me see a doctor. The appointment was planned and everything and we had to postpone it because my niece, who just turned 30 in November may have had a minor heart attack. She was at work [Teaching] and suddenly her chest, back and arms just starting hurting. It's extremely insane, she's probably the healthiest person in our family, she taught a fitness class for a few years, and suddenly bam. She seems to be doing alright now, but it's like...o_0. This being the same niece that had her credit cards stolen last month. Then comes to realization that she's only 9 years older than myself which makes me even MORE eager to get this whole stress thing settled.
I just need a looong break away from life. It's just getting to be too much, the hatred the breeds in my family is uncanny. Everyone hates one another. I cannot begin to tell you how many dinners have been filled with nothing but negative back-talk and such. I seriously don't know what to do anymore, there honestly is NO escape. No rooms to hide out in, no places I can go outside of my home...
I'm pathetic.