Sleepless in Sacramento
Well, well. I have actually started to update many times...but never really "finished" writing. But what is being "finished". Are things really ever "finished". Is life ever "finished" when you die? Who the hell knows. Who knows about anything these days.
So I have come to realize I get attched really easily. Actually, I knew that. And I tried not to do it, and I thought I wasn't. Little did I know. You know how when you have soemthing you don't really realize it? And then when you can't have it, that's the first thing you think about? I hate that feeling. Once you don't have it anymore, you want it!! And you want it bad! When I say you, I mean me, of course.
Why did things have to end now? It's kinda lame though. It was like a week..okay, maybe longer. But I loved the attention. I loved it. I don't think I sucked it up enough. Maybe I got too comfortable. Now it's just going to be really hard to be friends, and I really do want to be friends, but of course I want more then that. more, more, more...that's what we all want. Sometimes I think, wow, I have everything. But of couse 5 seconds later I think of something I "need". Maybe I will start to livea more simply life.
I don't know what else to say anymore. Life moves too fast. The semester is almost over, damn, scary! I am going to be moving. I have never moved in my life. How do you move? I am getting freaked out already by the move. I have too much stuff and am not willing to back down ontaking certain things. You all know how I pack for vacation. i over pack. Ya never know, huh? But at the same time I am excited. I hope it's everything I want it to be.
Well, thanks for reading. I'm lame. I hope LA brightens my life. The future is scary.
xoxoxoxox
So I have come to realize I get attched really easily. Actually, I knew that. And I tried not to do it, and I thought I wasn't. Little did I know. You know how when you have soemthing you don't really realize it? And then when you can't have it, that's the first thing you think about? I hate that feeling. Once you don't have it anymore, you want it!! And you want it bad! When I say you, I mean me, of course.
Why did things have to end now? It's kinda lame though. It was like a week..okay, maybe longer. But I loved the attention. I loved it. I don't think I sucked it up enough. Maybe I got too comfortable. Now it's just going to be really hard to be friends, and I really do want to be friends, but of course I want more then that. more, more, more...that's what we all want. Sometimes I think, wow, I have everything. But of couse 5 seconds later I think of something I "need". Maybe I will start to livea more simply life.
I don't know what else to say anymore. Life moves too fast. The semester is almost over, damn, scary! I am going to be moving. I have never moved in my life. How do you move? I am getting freaked out already by the move. I have too much stuff and am not willing to back down ontaking certain things. You all know how I pack for vacation. i over pack. Ya never know, huh? But at the same time I am excited. I hope it's everything I want it to be.
Well, thanks for reading. I'm lame. I hope LA brightens my life. The future is scary.
xoxoxoxox