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this morning i got up early...watched Like Water for Chocolate movie for the 7695467954th time...it's such a great movie...
watching it this time was different..
when i saw the scenes when pedro marries tita's older sister and tita is in the kitchen crying...i also cried...for the first time i cried watching this movie...maybe because now i realized how she felt...
when i asked him the night before last to take me away from here...
he got irritated...
maybe because he sees me as a problem..just like my mother does....
or maybe he doesn't care.
i wondered the same thing as to why didnt he take tita away...from her mother...
i stopped watching the movie after the wedding scene..i got too depressed.
took a shower..called him..eventually got there...he was too busy watching tv and checking his email...it seems that i am a problem...no matter what he did or said...i am still that problem...i thought during the entire time i was there...how it was exactly when i used to see richard...and i hate myself for getting in the same situation when i told myself that i never wanted to get in the same situation. ever. he didn't really say anything...which made me more sad since it seems that there is no point in us talking anymore....since there is nothing to say to each other.
i left..cried on my way home...
i'm tired of everything.
...tonight is my cousin's graduation party.
i already know what's going to happen...i'm going to get depressed over today...get drunk to forget about everything that happened within the past couple of days...end up in the corner falling asleep or something...i might take pictures....i don't know yet.
i hope musama is there tonight so i can feel better...at least making fun of alex together might make my night just that much funnier LOL -crosses fingers-
watching it this time was different..
when i saw the scenes when pedro marries tita's older sister and tita is in the kitchen crying...i also cried...for the first time i cried watching this movie...maybe because now i realized how she felt...
when i asked him the night before last to take me away from here...
he got irritated...
maybe because he sees me as a problem..just like my mother does....
or maybe he doesn't care.
i wondered the same thing as to why didnt he take tita away...from her mother...
i stopped watching the movie after the wedding scene..i got too depressed.
took a shower..called him..eventually got there...he was too busy watching tv and checking his email...it seems that i am a problem...no matter what he did or said...i am still that problem...i thought during the entire time i was there...how it was exactly when i used to see richard...and i hate myself for getting in the same situation when i told myself that i never wanted to get in the same situation. ever. he didn't really say anything...which made me more sad since it seems that there is no point in us talking anymore....since there is nothing to say to each other.
i left..cried on my way home...
i'm tired of everything.
...tonight is my cousin's graduation party.
i already know what's going to happen...i'm going to get depressed over today...get drunk to forget about everything that happened within the past couple of days...end up in the corner falling asleep or something...i might take pictures....i don't know yet.
i hope musama is there tonight so i can feel better...at least making fun of alex together might make my night just that much funnier LOL -crosses fingers-