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band camp was interesting. story behind cut <3
our days started at 6:30 in the morning, we had PT at 715. lots of stretching, usually about 20 pushups, and then running for ten minutes or so. sucked. but eh. then was breakfast, also my time to shower. while the band went and did basics block:
my section went and practiced :
my instructor kelly:
until about noon, we practice and then we ate lunch. afterwards, sometimes the drumline would come over and practice with us. they did drill&music, we played. or it was just us.
that is trevor, the infamous travis in the black pants, and lewis. mmm.
at about 330, we had break and i usually just hung out, talked to cleveland, sometimes hung out with travis, or kelly&elyssa. at five, we had dinner, at two of the five nights, we had cleanup after dinner. at six, we practiced some more. until usually ten at night.
this was two nights ago, our last night at band camp. everyone was jammin' and it was a great time. midnight was lights out, we fell asleep, and then we'd wake up and do that all over again.
but onto more important things. sunday night, started the drama. apparently, this girl beth that is friends with travis was falling for him, and was super jealous that he was sitting on the bus with me, giving him dirty looks, and finally he went over and sat with her to talk to her. he came back and explained the situation to me. and i didn't know what to do. i felt lost. i took him aside before bed and told him that i dont care what his decision is, aslong as he's happy. if he wants to be with her, than so be it. i want whats best for him. with that being said, i went and cried myself to sleep.
the next day, we were still being friends, and hanging out, but beth was getting jealous. she was essentially being a bitch. tuesday rolls around, and things are weird. i dont know whats happening, but i'm trying to be the best friend i possibly can for him. but it's difficult when i see him with her, and then my self confidence drops, and i talked with megan all break, crying, not knowing what to do. i talked to cleveland, and he said i need to talk to him and multiple other things.
wednesday. i decide i will talk to him. i tried to after lunch, but he was busy. i tried to during break, but before we'd get anywhere and answer my questions, someone would come over and interupt us, whether it be his mom, mr. stevens, or steve. so, i went to dinner, went to practice, each break, five minutes or so, he'd be with beth. she'd lay on the ground, he'd straddle her, and i was getting upset. not knowing what was happening. cleveland tried to keep me calm, but he knew i was upset and said i could go to the bathroom for awhile. i said no, not letting it get to me. practice ended, took everything back to the chapel, went into the messhall for snack, he sat down. said i looked mad, and i said yes. he asked what about, i said many things, some involving you, but i'll talk to him outside about it after snack. they started some lame game about having the shortest to tallest, and having both him and i being tall, we left.
we sat on the picnic table, and i started talking. i told him how any time i wanted to talk to him, my questions were left unanswered. i had no idea whether or not he wanted me or her. if he wantd me, he should say so, but it seemed like she was being a bitch to him, and he was taking it, as if he was looking for a reason to be with her, and if so, okay but i wanted to know. and he grabbed my chin, and made me look at him and said that he wanted to date me. only me. and i asked him if he was sure, he said yes. i continued to explain my uncertainty, about how during break he gave more attention to other people, and i wasn't sure what that meant, and i've been confused. and he said he understood, but he said that i was better for him. beth was always talking about her, and her feelings, but was never asking about him. i, on the other hand, was always making sure he was okay, and that when he hurt, i was there for him. and i didnt change who i was when i was around him. i wasnt trying to impress him. i was relieved.
thursday came along, and it was better. we hung out more, and it was nice being able to kiss him and not worry about whether or not it was okay, but it was. and i was happy. but he got really sick, and went home thursday night, but friday he came back for the performance in the morning. we sat on the bus together, and he told me that beth essentially gave up. she decided that i was better for him, because she's not good with relationships, or something. i said i was glad i have her approval, and we laughed. we performed, which went well, the before and after sucked, but the middle was good. on the way home, travis and i cuddled, and it was nice. it felt good. we got back to camp, packed everything. drama ensued with elyssa and steph. travis was still really sick, so i tried to be there for him, rubbing his back, giving him a massage, but his fever was immense. he laid in his car, so i went over and cuddled with him, trying to make him feel better. after about fifteen minutes, he just went home, said he'll call me later. and we performed for the parents, and it went extremely well. i went home and showered and slept for twelve hours.
wow, that was long. hahha. atleast i got it all out. much love kids, if you read it, wow <3
our days started at 6:30 in the morning, we had PT at 715. lots of stretching, usually about 20 pushups, and then running for ten minutes or so. sucked. but eh. then was breakfast, also my time to shower. while the band went and did basics block:
my section went and practiced :
my instructor kelly:
until about noon, we practice and then we ate lunch. afterwards, sometimes the drumline would come over and practice with us. they did drill&music, we played. or it was just us.
that is trevor, the infamous travis in the black pants, and lewis. mmm.
at about 330, we had break and i usually just hung out, talked to cleveland, sometimes hung out with travis, or kelly&elyssa. at five, we had dinner, at two of the five nights, we had cleanup after dinner. at six, we practiced some more. until usually ten at night.
this was two nights ago, our last night at band camp. everyone was jammin' and it was a great time. midnight was lights out, we fell asleep, and then we'd wake up and do that all over again.
but onto more important things. sunday night, started the drama. apparently, this girl beth that is friends with travis was falling for him, and was super jealous that he was sitting on the bus with me, giving him dirty looks, and finally he went over and sat with her to talk to her. he came back and explained the situation to me. and i didn't know what to do. i felt lost. i took him aside before bed and told him that i dont care what his decision is, aslong as he's happy. if he wants to be with her, than so be it. i want whats best for him. with that being said, i went and cried myself to sleep.
the next day, we were still being friends, and hanging out, but beth was getting jealous. she was essentially being a bitch. tuesday rolls around, and things are weird. i dont know whats happening, but i'm trying to be the best friend i possibly can for him. but it's difficult when i see him with her, and then my self confidence drops, and i talked with megan all break, crying, not knowing what to do. i talked to cleveland, and he said i need to talk to him and multiple other things.
wednesday. i decide i will talk to him. i tried to after lunch, but he was busy. i tried to during break, but before we'd get anywhere and answer my questions, someone would come over and interupt us, whether it be his mom, mr. stevens, or steve. so, i went to dinner, went to practice, each break, five minutes or so, he'd be with beth. she'd lay on the ground, he'd straddle her, and i was getting upset. not knowing what was happening. cleveland tried to keep me calm, but he knew i was upset and said i could go to the bathroom for awhile. i said no, not letting it get to me. practice ended, took everything back to the chapel, went into the messhall for snack, he sat down. said i looked mad, and i said yes. he asked what about, i said many things, some involving you, but i'll talk to him outside about it after snack. they started some lame game about having the shortest to tallest, and having both him and i being tall, we left.
we sat on the picnic table, and i started talking. i told him how any time i wanted to talk to him, my questions were left unanswered. i had no idea whether or not he wanted me or her. if he wantd me, he should say so, but it seemed like she was being a bitch to him, and he was taking it, as if he was looking for a reason to be with her, and if so, okay but i wanted to know. and he grabbed my chin, and made me look at him and said that he wanted to date me. only me. and i asked him if he was sure, he said yes. i continued to explain my uncertainty, about how during break he gave more attention to other people, and i wasn't sure what that meant, and i've been confused. and he said he understood, but he said that i was better for him. beth was always talking about her, and her feelings, but was never asking about him. i, on the other hand, was always making sure he was okay, and that when he hurt, i was there for him. and i didnt change who i was when i was around him. i wasnt trying to impress him. i was relieved.
thursday came along, and it was better. we hung out more, and it was nice being able to kiss him and not worry about whether or not it was okay, but it was. and i was happy. but he got really sick, and went home thursday night, but friday he came back for the performance in the morning. we sat on the bus together, and he told me that beth essentially gave up. she decided that i was better for him, because she's not good with relationships, or something. i said i was glad i have her approval, and we laughed. we performed, which went well, the before and after sucked, but the middle was good. on the way home, travis and i cuddled, and it was nice. it felt good. we got back to camp, packed everything. drama ensued with elyssa and steph. travis was still really sick, so i tried to be there for him, rubbing his back, giving him a massage, but his fever was immense. he laid in his car, so i went over and cuddled with him, trying to make him feel better. after about fifteen minutes, he just went home, said he'll call me later. and we performed for the parents, and it went extremely well. i went home and showered and slept for twelve hours.
wow, that was long. hahha. atleast i got it all out. much love kids, if you read it, wow <3