Some things change
Happy belated Easter family and friends! I have not logged into Live Journal in a long time. Perhaps there are periods when we all seem enthusiastic about posting entries every other day and periods when we lay off completely. Work has been keeping me busy for sure - running the maid business with Mum, going for modelling shoots and i've been doing quite a fair bit of PR events for Dad's company. Life has been good and i'm always grateful.
In a matter of just a month or slightly longer, some things have changed quite a fair bit for me. Well I guess sometimes, certain events take place and we tend to reflect not because we want to "dwell" over anything but I guess it's always a good thing to think about who we are and how we can improve as people. In the past, I used to confide in people very often, every single friend, colleague - well, basically anyone and everyone. I was always very quick to judge and I would share my thoughts with my friends so they could give me all the advice in the world.
Don't get me wrong, I have really good friends who have been there for me through the darkest times of my life. Many friends I have known from when i was just 13 years old. I probably confided in too many wrong people over the years, those who may have had ulterior motives and were just waiting for a "bad relationship" or a "bad event" to add salt to the wound. In fact, as I type all this now, it's a little strange for me as I never usually share much of my thoughts on my blog. I believe blogs are always meant for remembering the good times - afterall, life is what we make of it.
I had a long chat with my Mother about this lately. She is truly a gem and my best friend. I have never met a woman like her in my life. She never has a bad word to say about the people who have hurt her, not even the people who may have hurt her family or children. People like her are so hard to come by in the real world of today. Of course, we should never say never. There are many kind hearted souls out there who would give up anything for the people they love. Even one of my closest friends Shree Ann has been truly sweet and understanding. Mum and Shree have been supportive of my decisions in life and I guess it is always good to be happy for people and the choices they make for themselves.
I have completely stopped confiding in the wrong people and it's been quite a while already. I realise it has truly clouded my judgement and way of thinking. A close family member once told me that we should always be confident with the decisions we make in life and stand by them - even our feelings towards people. I must admit I have made some wrong decisions over the years - but it is never too late. I no longer feel stressed, worried or unsure about anything, anymore. I just do the things I am happy doing, and believe in the people I like being with. I now decide what is right for myself without having to ask the whole world if they agree or disagree.
Old habits die hard but nothing is ever impossible.
In a matter of just a month or slightly longer, some things have changed quite a fair bit for me. Well I guess sometimes, certain events take place and we tend to reflect not because we want to "dwell" over anything but I guess it's always a good thing to think about who we are and how we can improve as people. In the past, I used to confide in people very often, every single friend, colleague - well, basically anyone and everyone. I was always very quick to judge and I would share my thoughts with my friends so they could give me all the advice in the world.
Don't get me wrong, I have really good friends who have been there for me through the darkest times of my life. Many friends I have known from when i was just 13 years old. I probably confided in too many wrong people over the years, those who may have had ulterior motives and were just waiting for a "bad relationship" or a "bad event" to add salt to the wound. In fact, as I type all this now, it's a little strange for me as I never usually share much of my thoughts on my blog. I believe blogs are always meant for remembering the good times - afterall, life is what we make of it.
I had a long chat with my Mother about this lately. She is truly a gem and my best friend. I have never met a woman like her in my life. She never has a bad word to say about the people who have hurt her, not even the people who may have hurt her family or children. People like her are so hard to come by in the real world of today. Of course, we should never say never. There are many kind hearted souls out there who would give up anything for the people they love. Even one of my closest friends Shree Ann has been truly sweet and understanding. Mum and Shree have been supportive of my decisions in life and I guess it is always good to be happy for people and the choices they make for themselves.
I have completely stopped confiding in the wrong people and it's been quite a while already. I realise it has truly clouded my judgement and way of thinking. A close family member once told me that we should always be confident with the decisions we make in life and stand by them - even our feelings towards people. I must admit I have made some wrong decisions over the years - but it is never too late. I no longer feel stressed, worried or unsure about anything, anymore. I just do the things I am happy doing, and believe in the people I like being with. I now decide what is right for myself without having to ask the whole world if they agree or disagree.
Old habits die hard but nothing is ever impossible.