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school wasn't so bad.
i decided not to delete this.
sorry, i'm a gemini.
i still don't have my books,
slash money for them.
Sam's wake was terrible. I guess anyone could have guessed that. Even if i didn't know her as well as I would have liked to, being there, with the line to get in miles down the street, was heart-wrenching. As me and kevin got closer, more and mnore people came out, their eyes all red with tears. It was absolutely horrible. We went in, and i saw all these pictures of her.. from when she was little, up to graduation.. and then I saw it. It wasn't even the same Sam Grimard I used to know. Sam's full of life, and laughter, and she always smiled, no matter what was going on. To see her lying there, lifeless and gone.. It was way too much for anyone who knew her to take. Me and Kevin said a little prayer, and I saw her family. The ones who should have been crying when they hugged me.. the people who raised her, and got to see her accomplish so many different things.. But they didn't cry. Her mother hugged me, as did her brother.. But her father. He just looked at me, and I could have died from the words he said to me. He put his hand to my head and looked into my eyes and told me that she was beautiful, that she was looking down on all of us, that she's going to take care of us. He told me to go home to my mother, and to tell her I loved her. And I did. I don't care if you weren't close to her. I wasn't close to her at all... but that's not the point. It could have happened to anyone of us, any one of my friends, it could have happened to me. it makes me feel so disposable, and that's why I'm not taking anyone, or anything for granted anymore. I've let myself lose so many good friends, and let so many awesome oppertunities pass me by all in the name of selfishness, and to just not caring.
That's all over with. I just want to let everyone know, no matter who reads this, no matter how long we haven't talked, no matter how much we might not like each other, that I'm done with all of my regrets, and I'm through with holding back and making excuses. Last night after the wake, I realized that there are so many things I'm going to miss out on if I keep this act up.. and I want everyone to know, that I'm finished. From here on in, I'm disregarding every fight I've, every grudge.. I'm just sick of all this extra baggage. I'm not expecting anyone else to do the same but... I just wanted to put that out there.
Rest In Peace, Samantha Grimard. ♥
i decided not to delete this.
sorry, i'm a gemini.
i still don't have my books,
slash money for them.
Sam's wake was terrible. I guess anyone could have guessed that. Even if i didn't know her as well as I would have liked to, being there, with the line to get in miles down the street, was heart-wrenching. As me and kevin got closer, more and mnore people came out, their eyes all red with tears. It was absolutely horrible. We went in, and i saw all these pictures of her.. from when she was little, up to graduation.. and then I saw it. It wasn't even the same Sam Grimard I used to know. Sam's full of life, and laughter, and she always smiled, no matter what was going on. To see her lying there, lifeless and gone.. It was way too much for anyone who knew her to take. Me and Kevin said a little prayer, and I saw her family. The ones who should have been crying when they hugged me.. the people who raised her, and got to see her accomplish so many different things.. But they didn't cry. Her mother hugged me, as did her brother.. But her father. He just looked at me, and I could have died from the words he said to me. He put his hand to my head and looked into my eyes and told me that she was beautiful, that she was looking down on all of us, that she's going to take care of us. He told me to go home to my mother, and to tell her I loved her. And I did. I don't care if you weren't close to her. I wasn't close to her at all... but that's not the point. It could have happened to anyone of us, any one of my friends, it could have happened to me. it makes me feel so disposable, and that's why I'm not taking anyone, or anything for granted anymore. I've let myself lose so many good friends, and let so many awesome oppertunities pass me by all in the name of selfishness, and to just not caring.
That's all over with. I just want to let everyone know, no matter who reads this, no matter how long we haven't talked, no matter how much we might not like each other, that I'm done with all of my regrets, and I'm through with holding back and making excuses. Last night after the wake, I realized that there are so many things I'm going to miss out on if I keep this act up.. and I want everyone to know, that I'm finished. From here on in, I'm disregarding every fight I've, every grudge.. I'm just sick of all this extra baggage. I'm not expecting anyone else to do the same but... I just wanted to put that out there.
Rest In Peace, Samantha Grimard. ♥