Another thing I was thinking about today...
When I was in the bookstore I happened to pass a book on the 100 Greatest Broadway Musicals of All Time. I flipped through the pages and got all teary eyed and had goosebumps all over. I bought a new book of monologues. This is what I need to do. Nothing else can evoke such emotion out of me. Its my dream. Thinking of being a manager at Wal-Mart doesn't do that to me. It might be a more easily attained goal, but it's not what I really want. I'm a theatre kid. I love the theatre. I'll get over my fear of singing in front of people. I'll train harder in my acting classes. Maybe I'll transfer schools so I can get what I really need. WSU doesn't really have a Theatre Education program. And as much as I'd love to just be an actress I have to think realistically. I'd have to move to Chicago, which I'm not ready for. I love kids and I love theatre. My two passions. It just makes sense. I need to do this. I need to get motivated. I need to be pushed if it comes down to that. I need to get back into it and start auditioning for some community stuff. I've let work get in the way of everything. I always say I don't have enough time I have to work and that's true, but I need to make time. I could work third shift so I'd being going to work after rehearsals. I know how much time a show takes. I'm willing to do it. I need to do it. Gosh, I miss being on stage...