Against my better judgment...
Life is just so strange sometimes. It's wonderful and terrible. You get a taste of what you've been waiting for and then it goes away. You can't read minds. You don't know what other people are thinking or what they want. Wouldn't it be nice if you could? The odds are stacked against me and my better judgment tells me I'm looking for heartbreak, but I just can't walk away. Not until I'm sure. Then again, theres a part of me that feels like this is going to be one of the best friendships I have. And if that's the worst case scenario then I can definitely live with that. I feel like he understands me and doesn't judge or try to tell me what to do or how to feel. He listens. Thats nice. Some things are still worth waiting for. I've never been one to push or give ultimatums. I'm patient and understanding. :) I listen and I care. I care a lot. Maybe too much. I don't want see anyone hurt him, especially not me. Then I start to think about it and I don't think I would. He just deserves so much. So much that I don't think I can give him, but whos to say I can't try? It seems like the most amazing people in the world have no clue how special they are. Perhaps that's what makes them so great.