2010!
I can't believe it's 2010! That's.. TEN years since 2000! I.. I don't know how to handle this please someone build a time machine
I spent the last three weeks with R here to keep me company. My mood improves so much with him around that it's disturbing. Helped me keep my mind off of life crap so I could just enjoy the holidays. TAT I got to ring in the new year with ahvia and beetlefreak in the best possible manner (AT AN ANIME CONVENTION YEAH) but now everyone mentioned in this paragraph is back to school and I feel lonely again and am again reminded of the fact that I have no friends in my own hometown. orz the very first thing R said after returning from the anime convention was "you have really nice friends :D " and he is 500% right ;A;
But before said friends were in town I was spending my days flipping through job listings, feeling downhearted by them, then sleeping for half the day and spending every moment awake like a zombie. Was completely uninterested in anything and none of my hobbies sounded appealing any more. Aren't these symptoms of depression?! oh god;;
I just spent another two hours browsing job listings. Same problems that I've encountered before: few jobs listed and of those even fewer desirable positions for people who want to become business professionals. Of those jobs, they usually have two sections of offers: one for interns for current students who don't know how to do shit but want to learn and one for people who have several years' worth of experience. I fall into neither category and thus feel unwanted and want to go curl up in a ball in a corner and vomit;;
In any case, I can only move up from here, so I will shoot for the stars. ;A;)/
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS that I likely won't keep:
* get a job that doesn't suck at a company that doesn't suck
* get a car
* lose 5-10lbs
* stop worrying and panicking over every small mishap and try to not let bad situations get to me
* draw more and get back into other hobbies
* improve at cooking
* stop wasting what little money I have on things like figures broke this one on the first day of the new year thanks to a little togainu coupling figure TAT
* become a generally less disgusting/worthless/spineless human being orz
I think 2009 was the most unproductive year of my life and though it was fun I feel like I completely wasted it and threw a lot of opportunity out the window (proud of myself for the high GPA but apparently it's meaningless so screw it). Good job, me.
Here's to making 2010 a bright one. ;A;)/ Good luck to me and everyone else who still reads this terrible terrible terrible journal.
Though this journal has all but been flushed down the e-toilet (I haven't really checked my friends list in over a month), I've been updating my twitter account daily. I think something about this big LJ text box makes me want to fill it, so posts go on and on and on and feel kind of exhausting. orz
I spent the last three weeks with R here to keep me company. My mood improves so much with him around that it's disturbing. Helped me keep my mind off of life crap so I could just enjoy the holidays. TAT I got to ring in the new year with ahvia and beetlefreak in the best possible manner (AT AN ANIME CONVENTION YEAH) but now everyone mentioned in this paragraph is back to school and I feel lonely again and am again reminded of the fact that I have no friends in my own hometown. orz the very first thing R said after returning from the anime convention was "you have really nice friends :D " and he is 500% right ;A;
But before said friends were in town I was spending my days flipping through job listings, feeling downhearted by them, then sleeping for half the day and spending every moment awake like a zombie. Was completely uninterested in anything and none of my hobbies sounded appealing any more. Aren't these symptoms of depression?! oh god;;
I just spent another two hours browsing job listings. Same problems that I've encountered before: few jobs listed and of those even fewer desirable positions for people who want to become business professionals. Of those jobs, they usually have two sections of offers: one for interns for current students who don't know how to do shit but want to learn and one for people who have several years' worth of experience. I fall into neither category and thus feel unwanted and want to go curl up in a ball in a corner and vomit;;
In any case, I can only move up from here, so I will shoot for the stars. ;A;)/
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS that I likely won't keep:
* get a job that doesn't suck at a company that doesn't suck
* get a car
* lose 5-10lbs
* stop worrying and panicking over every small mishap and try to not let bad situations get to me
* draw more and get back into other hobbies
* improve at cooking
* stop wasting what little money I have on things like figures broke this one on the first day of the new year thanks to a little togainu coupling figure TAT
* become a generally less disgusting/worthless/spineless human being orz
I think 2009 was the most unproductive year of my life and though it was fun I feel like I completely wasted it and threw a lot of opportunity out the window (proud of myself for the high GPA but apparently it's meaningless so screw it). Good job, me.
Here's to making 2010 a bright one. ;A;)/ Good luck to me and everyone else who still reads this terrible terrible terrible journal.
Though this journal has all but been flushed down the e-toilet (I haven't really checked my friends list in over a month), I've been updating my twitter account daily. I think something about this big LJ text box makes me want to fill it, so posts go on and on and on and feel kind of exhausting. orz