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I'm a pretty fucking cool and easy to get along with girlfriend when I actually respect the person I'm in a relationship with. And, I'm still in the process of repairing the damage Geoff did, but I have a ginormous amount of respect for that man regardless of his little past freak outs. However, I'm still very cautious. A lot of it has to do with the retard in CT and that's totally unfair to Geoff, but it is what it is. I try not to take it out on Geoff, but I still harbor a lot of insecurities from that fucked up relationship and I seriously doubt I'll ever allow anyone to get that close to me ever again no matter how much I respect, like or love them. That's kind of sad, but one must self preserve.
Anyway, I asked Geoff how much he needed in order to get his iPhone and he won't accept a lend from me. It kind of bums me out a bit that he won't let me help with that because I know he really, really wants it. I would just buy the damn thing for him, but I've gone through my Obama fund and I don't have the money to give him (or anyone else) a $300 present. I wish I did. Anyway, he told me he's got $150 in the bank until next Friday so I told him to cancel our dinner reservations for Saturday and that we'd make dinner instead (which is what I really wanted anyway). In all the time I've known him not once have I ever seen him concerned about his finances nor have I seen him wait to buy some electronic gizmo he's wanted so I'm guessing he really did a doozy on his bank account when he went to Spain and I'm not going to allow our anniversary to stress him out financially. It's not that big of a deal. I mean, it is, but it isn't. It's a big deal that we spend time together and that's the extent of it for me. I don't care what we do or where we do or don't go as long as we're together and enjoying each other's company.
Anyway, I asked Geoff how much he needed in order to get his iPhone and he won't accept a lend from me. It kind of bums me out a bit that he won't let me help with that because I know he really, really wants it. I would just buy the damn thing for him, but I've gone through my Obama fund and I don't have the money to give him (or anyone else) a $300 present. I wish I did. Anyway, he told me he's got $150 in the bank until next Friday so I told him to cancel our dinner reservations for Saturday and that we'd make dinner instead (which is what I really wanted anyway). In all the time I've known him not once have I ever seen him concerned about his finances nor have I seen him wait to buy some electronic gizmo he's wanted so I'm guessing he really did a doozy on his bank account when he went to Spain and I'm not going to allow our anniversary to stress him out financially. It's not that big of a deal. I mean, it is, but it isn't. It's a big deal that we spend time together and that's the extent of it for me. I don't care what we do or where we do or don't go as long as we're together and enjoying each other's company.