borderline personality disorder.
I often like to self diagnos myself. But this time I think Im right.
I think I have BPD.
(That I copied and pasted from wikipedia):
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
Mmm . This sentance doesnt make much sense to me. I guess I dont like to be abandoned?
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
Why do they have to use confusing words?Fuck. I think its talking about how I "hate/love/hate/love" with the same people. Which I do very often.
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, promiscuous sex, eating disorders, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).
I dont know if I have an eating disorder. The thoughts crossed my mind, but I dont think I would diagnos myself with an ED. Substance abuse? Yes please.
Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
I used to cut. I dont anymore. I didnt cut because I was emo either, thanks. Like.. its like you feel so relieved and refreshed once youve done it. Now when Im angry, I do something like shave my legs, because it takes focus and you cant think about other things when your shaving your legs. By the time my legs are smooth, so are my emotions.
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
Ehh. Im pretttty bad with mood swings. And I get stressed and panic attacked easily.
Chronic feelings of emptiness.
Once again, IM NOT SEEKING ATTENTION BY POSTING THIS, GUYS. K? I just feel like telling anyone that I think I have BPD, they will think I just want attention, but you guys are on the internet and Ill never meet, so I can say whatever the fuck I want, right? But yes, I ofter feel "empty..."
Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).
Not really. I used to have a really bad problem at controlling my anger. But once again, I either shave my legs or I also like to write.
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.
I hate confusing sentances. But I guess Im paranoid, and I dont have any friends, really. I have a problem with EVERYONE, and I odnt like anyone. Too judgemental?
has been said that there is probably no other mental disorder about which so many articles and books have been written (particularly, in the past, from a psychoanalytic perspective) yet about which so little is known from empirical research[4]
Studies suggest that individuals with BPD tend to experience frequent, strong and long-lasting states of aversive tension, often triggered by perceived rejection, being alone or perceived failure.[5] Individuals with BPD may show lability (changeability) between anger and anxiety or between depression and anxiety[6] and temperamental sensitivity to emotive stimuli.[7] The negative emotional states particularly associated with BPD have been grouped into four categories of: extreme feelings in general; feelings of destructiveness or self-destructiveness; feelings of fragmentation or "identitylessness"; and feelings of victimization.[8]
Individuals with BPD can be very sensitive to the way others treat them, reacting strongly to perceived criticism or hurtfulness. Their feelings about others often shift from positive to negative, generally after a disappointment or perceived threat of losing someone. Self-image can also change rapidly from extremely positive to extremely negative. Impulsive behaviors are common, including alcohol or drug abuse, unsafe sex, gambling, and recklessness in general.[9] Attachment studies suggest individuals with BPD, while being high in intimacy- or novelty-seeking, can be hyper-alert[4] to signs of rejection or not being valued and tend towards insecure, ambivalent, preoccupied or fearful attitudes towards relationships.[10] They tend to view the world generally as dangerous and malevolent, and themselves as powerless, vulnerable, unacceptable and unsure in self-identity.[4]
Individuals with BPD are often described, including by some mental health professionals (and in the DSM-IV[1]), as deliberately manipulative or difficult, but analyses and findings generally trace behaviors to inner pain and turmoil, powerlessness and defensive reactions, or limited coping and communication skills.[11][12][13] There has been limited research on family members' understanding of borderline personality disorder and the extent of burden or negative emotion experienced or expressed by family members.[14] Parents of individuals with BPD have been reported to show co-existing extremes of over-involvement and under-involvement.[15] BPD has been linked to somewhat increased levels of chronic stress and conflict in romantic relationships, decreased satisfaction of romantic partners, abuse, and unwanted pregnancy; these links may largely be general to personality disorder and subsyndromal problems.[16] but such issues are commonly raised in support groups and published literature for partners of individuals with BPD.
Suicidal or self-harming behaviour is one of the core diagnostic criteria in DSM IV-TR, and management of and recovery from this can be complex and challenging.[17] The suicide rate is approximately eight to ten percent.[18] The most recognized form of self-injury is automutilation (cutting the self), usually of the arms, but often other areas such as the legs, chest, belly, and face. Self-injury attempts are highly common among patients and may or may not be carried out with suicidal intent.[19][20] BPD is often characterized by multiple low lethality suicide attempts triggered by seemingly minor incidents, and less commonly by high lethality attempts that are attributed to impulsiveness or comorbid major depression, with interpersonal stressors appearing to be particularly common triggers.[21]Ongoing family interactions and associated vulnerabilities can lead to self-destructive behavior.[15] Stressful life events related to sexual abuse have been found to be a particular trigger for suicide attempts by adolescents with a BPD diagnosis.[22]
I think I have BPD.
(That I copied and pasted from wikipedia):
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
Mmm . This sentance doesnt make much sense to me. I guess I dont like to be abandoned?
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
Why do they have to use confusing words?Fuck. I think its talking about how I "hate/love/hate/love" with the same people. Which I do very often.
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, promiscuous sex, eating disorders, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).
I dont know if I have an eating disorder. The thoughts crossed my mind, but I dont think I would diagnos myself with an ED. Substance abuse? Yes please.
Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
I used to cut. I dont anymore. I didnt cut because I was emo either, thanks. Like.. its like you feel so relieved and refreshed once youve done it. Now when Im angry, I do something like shave my legs, because it takes focus and you cant think about other things when your shaving your legs. By the time my legs are smooth, so are my emotions.
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
Ehh. Im pretttty bad with mood swings. And I get stressed and panic attacked easily.
Chronic feelings of emptiness.
Once again, IM NOT SEEKING ATTENTION BY POSTING THIS, GUYS. K? I just feel like telling anyone that I think I have BPD, they will think I just want attention, but you guys are on the internet and Ill never meet, so I can say whatever the fuck I want, right? But yes, I ofter feel "empty..."
Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).
Not really. I used to have a really bad problem at controlling my anger. But once again, I either shave my legs or I also like to write.
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.
I hate confusing sentances. But I guess Im paranoid, and I dont have any friends, really. I have a problem with EVERYONE, and I odnt like anyone. Too judgemental?
has been said that there is probably no other mental disorder about which so many articles and books have been written (particularly, in the past, from a psychoanalytic perspective) yet about which so little is known from empirical research[4]
Studies suggest that individuals with BPD tend to experience frequent, strong and long-lasting states of aversive tension, often triggered by perceived rejection, being alone or perceived failure.[5] Individuals with BPD may show lability (changeability) between anger and anxiety or between depression and anxiety[6] and temperamental sensitivity to emotive stimuli.[7] The negative emotional states particularly associated with BPD have been grouped into four categories of: extreme feelings in general; feelings of destructiveness or self-destructiveness; feelings of fragmentation or "identitylessness"; and feelings of victimization.[8]
Individuals with BPD can be very sensitive to the way others treat them, reacting strongly to perceived criticism or hurtfulness. Their feelings about others often shift from positive to negative, generally after a disappointment or perceived threat of losing someone. Self-image can also change rapidly from extremely positive to extremely negative. Impulsive behaviors are common, including alcohol or drug abuse, unsafe sex, gambling, and recklessness in general.[9] Attachment studies suggest individuals with BPD, while being high in intimacy- or novelty-seeking, can be hyper-alert[4] to signs of rejection or not being valued and tend towards insecure, ambivalent, preoccupied or fearful attitudes towards relationships.[10] They tend to view the world generally as dangerous and malevolent, and themselves as powerless, vulnerable, unacceptable and unsure in self-identity.[4]
Individuals with BPD are often described, including by some mental health professionals (and in the DSM-IV[1]), as deliberately manipulative or difficult, but analyses and findings generally trace behaviors to inner pain and turmoil, powerlessness and defensive reactions, or limited coping and communication skills.[11][12][13] There has been limited research on family members' understanding of borderline personality disorder and the extent of burden or negative emotion experienced or expressed by family members.[14] Parents of individuals with BPD have been reported to show co-existing extremes of over-involvement and under-involvement.[15] BPD has been linked to somewhat increased levels of chronic stress and conflict in romantic relationships, decreased satisfaction of romantic partners, abuse, and unwanted pregnancy; these links may largely be general to personality disorder and subsyndromal problems.[16] but such issues are commonly raised in support groups and published literature for partners of individuals with BPD.
Suicidal or self-harming behaviour is one of the core diagnostic criteria in DSM IV-TR, and management of and recovery from this can be complex and challenging.[17] The suicide rate is approximately eight to ten percent.[18] The most recognized form of self-injury is automutilation (cutting the self), usually of the arms, but often other areas such as the legs, chest, belly, and face. Self-injury attempts are highly common among patients and may or may not be carried out with suicidal intent.[19][20] BPD is often characterized by multiple low lethality suicide attempts triggered by seemingly minor incidents, and less commonly by high lethality attempts that are attributed to impulsiveness or comorbid major depression, with interpersonal stressors appearing to be particularly common triggers.[21]Ongoing family interactions and associated vulnerabilities can lead to self-destructive behavior.[15] Stressful life events related to sexual abuse have been found to be a particular trigger for suicide attempts by adolescents with a BPD diagnosis.[22]