a dream I had in June
Getting married. standing in a church-like building on a pulpit that was about 5 stories up from the congregation. It was a very stark white, open building. The pulpit I was standing on with my finace' was very small and extended from the rest of the loft, almost free floating. Behind the small extension was a vetical wall. The entire room was white. stark. Everything. I stood on the extended loft holding my fiance's hand. I can not recall his face. I know I saw him in my dream. I know he was tall and strong and stood very straight. I can not recall his face. I was terrified standing there. My heart was racing and I was scared of falling. He was secure. He stood so tall and straight and strong, like a pillar. Holding my life in his hand. Pamela Mateya was marrying us. She continued talking as I steped onto the more secure area, behind the entended pulpit. (I don't think the ceremony had started yet, i think she was just going over a few things before we began.) I leaned against the white wall on the right hand side. My fiance' stayed on the extended pulpit very still before he came over to me and grabbed my hand to stop my shaking. He looked down with reassurance. Pamela walked over, unsure what to say when we took our vows. I told her to say nothing religious. He lead me back to the pulpit extension and we completed the ceremony in a quick blur. At the end of the vows my husband pulled me to the secure area of the loft to kiss me. He stopped and held me a long time. We spun into a large room where everyone gathered around us cheering and clapping and he never let go. I remember shutting everyone else out and solely concentrating on how protected and calm and settled I felt in his arms. I extended my left hand to see my ring and I felt my friend grab my left hand to wake me up....weird.
BUT I dont really believe this means I was to get married or anything, considering there was no memory of who my love was. But I do believe it had to do with all the changes and decisions I had to make this summer for the upcoming year. It was a very confusing time and I really just needed a support system and i wasent getting it. Now things are coming together and people are starting to support my decisions. I felt the need though, to put in this disclaimer, so you all didnt freak out that I'm dreaming of weddings and love and shit.
BUT I dont really believe this means I was to get married or anything, considering there was no memory of who my love was. But I do believe it had to do with all the changes and decisions I had to make this summer for the upcoming year. It was a very confusing time and I really just needed a support system and i wasent getting it. Now things are coming together and people are starting to support my decisions. I felt the need though, to put in this disclaimer, so you all didnt freak out that I'm dreaming of weddings and love and shit.