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[pangaea]

I can't breathe.

My hands feel cold, my face is numb and my heart hurts.

I think...
it's breaking.

But that's impossible.

They said, I was       heartless.

How can something inside me which doesn't exist...

b r e   a     k ?

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[gpov]

"You never know what your missing till it arrives"

I don't know who said that but like your heart, you never knew you had it till you feel it. It is either breaking or its throbbing with delight.

No one is heartless, you and I know that. One day you will feel your heart. I hope it's pleasant.

Or like that song goes "How come love don't feel like it should, come on baby make it hurt so good"

So it may hurt so good!!! :)

rgds gpov

If it were romantic...

[pangaea]

or something I could romanticize, I'd feel good, somewhat.

How do you romanticize being told "you are just one naturally evil person and you won't ever change"?

Re: If it were romantic...

[gpov]

I hope it wasn't your brother. (batukan mo) Just kidding, I had a brother like that. He was mean and I despised him. He knew how I felt and even my other siblings felt it was a little true. But now he is... if it were basketball he would have gotten the most improved player award. He is still a bit grumpy but what a turn around. And the best part is I think he has a girlfriend... Now that I think about it he never had a GF that I met and he is 2 years older than me.

Believe me Choc, everyone can change (not that I'm saying you are bad or anything) and there is no such thing as naturally evil. (Maybe masungit, tsk tsk tsk) Kidding!!!!

rgds gpov

Heh. :)

[pangaea]

actually, it's my barkada from college. After graduation, I'm getting "dumped". Apparently, I'm some mercenary person who thinks the world revolves around me and that everything should go my way.

What a revelation that was. It wouldn't hurt so much if it were true. I don't even know which way I want to go, much less direct the world.

[gpov]

What a lousy group of friends. In our barkada we are all different and sometimes we don't like the actions of some of the guys in the barkada. It doesn't mean you condemn them for life. Finding people who accept you for what you are is difficult. But I guess you got a bum rap with your friends.

From what I have seen you have a strong and dominant personality. Good organizational skills and very focused... (reminder When I make my first acquisition offer the COO post to Choc, okay the CEO post pero ako Chairman) But after 4 years, they should already know your personality and they dump you after grad.... Talk about users!!! Don't sweat it, some of them will come around. And when they do, don't be too sungit.

rgds gpov

Thanks.

[pangaea]

I feel a bit better. :)

In high school, I wasn't assertive enough. In college, I was too assertive. I hope I get it right in this whole new world.

I won't be sungit. But I don't know where I can find the strength to accept if that does happen. Esp. now that I'm using it all up just trying to survive. :(

Can you tell I'm depressed? :) I really appreciate the vote of confidence. I'll be glad to hold the CEO position to your Chairman of the Board. It's the least I can do. Haha.