I knew 2012 was the end of the world ._.
I have some bad news, guys. Please don’t hate me for it.
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I have officially fallen out of the SHINee fandom. I still love them, but not as much as before. I sorta blame TVXQ =/
Like I said, once I discover a new band and like them, I start to neglect the other bands as well. This happened once, when I discovered SHINee and forgotten all about BIGBANG and 2NE1. But thanks to SHINee, my love for K-Pop has gotten wider. I actually stared liking other bands - like MBLAQ, B2ST, SNSD, f(x) - as well (but not as much as SHINee).
I won’t even listen to their music anymore, and I didn’t even know that they had released a Japanese album. Even if their songs did happen to come out in shuffle on my phone, I tend to skip them. I feel so guilty :'(
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It’s my final and most important school year of all. It also sorta determines my career. And that means that I have decided to retire from LJ like what kkailee and illoveminho did. They are the meanest and most disrespectful dongsaengs ever (>.<), but I still love them to death T-T
I’ll still visit the site from time to time and leave comments or maybe even read some fics, but I won’t be on so much anymore. Maybe even barely ;_;
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I said I will retire, but I meant from the SHINee community. TVXQ has caught my interest so much, they’re all I’m writing. I post fics partly because I want to improve my English (which it did. Whoo~). So if you still want to read some more of my works, it’s highly appreciated :)
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I feel so bad. I’m so sorry, you guys. Thanks for being with me through thick and thin, and for actually bearing the fact that I wasn’t able to update chaptered fics as much as possible because I’m lazy like that I tend to forget that I actually do have to update fics -_-
The last SHINee fic I will ever write is a Key x OC one that I promised zarajuku. I was supposed to post it up sometime around now, but I’m still stuck. I’m so sorry, Zarah, I’m a bad person who can’t keep promises ;_;
~Personal apologies~
saranghaehyung: I’m sorry I’m not a good noona. Honestly, half of the reasons why I still post fics is because you are one of the most adorable dongsaengs ever. I love to read your responses. You suck up to me so much and it feels so good, and you’re the first ever guy who is younger than me who has a love for K-Pop. You are amazing and awesome and I just love you so much♥ ^_^
hongjinri: Okay, so maybe I don’t comment on your fics and you don’t comment on mine too (lol), but that’s okay. You’re busy and now I am too. I feel like I have nothing to apologize (lol), so relax and don’t stress yourself out, okay? The world still needs Jonghyun’s and Linda’s love children, and it’s up to me to continue claiming my spot as the future godmother of your kids♥ xD
sumdo: Not sure if you’ll actually read this, but I sorta know how you feel. You want me to find a new “Jonghyun” to RP with, but now I feel as if you should find a new “Key” to RP with as well. I srsly miss our spazzy comments when we joked about going to Koleah - they were such fun times♥ :'(
kpopbiasedxx: Oh my God, I feel as if I should apologize to you the most. It took me more than two months to actually complete the JongKey smut fic you wanted me to. I wouldn’t sign up for Potterworld / Pottermore (I get mixed up) because I’m lazy and I spend too much time away from the internet. I feel as if I should protect and care for you the most, and not because you’re supposed to be my Taemin. I’ll still read your fics, so don’t stop updating - they put a smile on my face♥ :)
illoveminho: You. The one I worry about the most. You have so much things going on in your life I just want to cry and hug you. You’re so young and you get these kinds of troubles that it’s really unfair. You may have moved on from LJ and went on to AFF, but it’s cool. LJ’s becoming dead anyway. I love you so much, you disrespectful person, you. Our arguments and JongMinKey love triangle conversations always put a smile on my face♥ :D
zarajuku: I have said this once, I will say it again for a million more times - you are really pretty. I’m sad that we have to end our LJ fun time. Facebook is okay, but we live in different time zones and, honest to God, I feel awkward when we talk. It’s like, I need a fic written for the conversation to flow out naturally. Plus we’re able to add GIFS and stuff. Those conversations when you and I get delusional daydream about being married to JongKey and then dragging AlyHyun out for shopping - honestly, you guys are going to be monsters T-T
You’re such an awesome friend♥ :)
isaywierd: Our GIF conversations were one of the best things to look forward to when I post a new JongKey fic. You don’t comment much anymore, but that’s understandable. I don’t really update that much anyway. I remember I was so happy when you wrote a TaeHyun for me. But then I didn’t comment because I was worried your other friends would think I’m weird xD
Besides, I wasn’t able to add any GIFs in FaceBook =w=
I hope you’re still living fine, and it’s so awesome to have an African friend. Stay healthy, okay? Love you♥ :D
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Once again, thank you all so much for such an unforgettable experience. Honestly, partly the reason why I think LJ’s boring now is because my favorite authors don’t really update anymore. The hype of reading a new / updated fic has lost its fun, sadly :'(
So thanks for all the appreciative comments for the fics I wrote when I was still a rookie noob (like Messed-up Tuition) and for the comments when I don’t write fics. I’ll miss you all ;_;
It was fun♥♥♥ :)
And just because I can, a short drabble.
flying; jonghyun × key; pg-15
jonghyun spots kibum standing out in the balcony, back facing him and body leaning forward on the stone fencing. he goes towards him and smiles, wrapping his arms around the lithe frame of the taller boy. he rests his chin on his shoulder and hums a small tune.
“i want to fly, jonghyun hyung,” kibum says after a few moments of silence. he spreads his arms wide. “i want to travel the world with you and learn new things and languages. and then i can learn some new recipes too if you like certain types of food in that country.”
jonghyun kisses kibum’s shoulder. “flying and traveling around the world aren’t the same, kibum,” he says softly.
“when i’m with you, anything’s possible,” kibum smiles, turning his head to look at the singer. he feels wind blowing straight at them and he closes his eyes, turning his head back to feel it running through his locks and pressing cooling kisses to his face.
jonghyun hums in reply and closes his eyes, tightening his hold on kibum. he wants to stay in this position forever. even though it’s not possible, when he’s with kibum, everything’s possible.
everything …
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PS: Raquel, remember this?
