What is this feeling?
I just got a feeling of actually wanting to post in this thing. That is new, or at least new for me lately. I was thinking earlier that I should start writing again, but then I thought "what would I write?". Perhaps just random writing in this journal, like I used to do, would help get the words coming out of me. I feel that I have become somewhat distant from my thoughts over the last year or so. I only have how I used to be to compare things to, but I used to write freely, now it feels forced. It is all good though, I will just keep forcing words until I feel comfortable with them again. At least, I hope that will work.
So, 2006 is coming to a close. This is a good thing I think. This past year has seen me through some very hard times, HUGE life altering times, growing times, a few happy times, busy times... just blargh, a lot of changes and new doors opening where other doors closed in my face. 2007 will be the official start of a new life I suppose. A fresh year full of possibility. My school ends on the 4th, which means that is the last door of 2006 to close really. Good timing -nod- I have a lot of things I need to work out for the coming year, but I have a sense of "everything will be fine" going on, so I hope that I am right! If not, I still have some inner strength left to cope with anything new that comes my way. I hope :S Nah, I do. I do.
I do have some things I plan on accomplishing in the new year. One is obviously making more money. At least with a fresh start comes fresh planning and a new outlook on life. There are too many people that I care about, myself included, that are stressed out over money issues. If I could do something to change that? Yeah, I would be happy. There is a ton of money floating around in the world, I am sure I can do something to get a fair share of it.
Another thing that 2007 will bring is a happier Sadie. This is a must. I have spent far too much time over the last year (or years) complaining and whining. Most has been justified really, but I have grown tired of feeling the need to do that so often. I am a realist in most things when it comes down to it, so I know that to eliminate 100% of the whines from my life is impossible, I would like to have at least 50% happy things to say, heh. But eh, whatever, I am sure that 2007 will be a much better year -nods- Positive on that one.
This is not my proverbial New Year's post though, that one I am going to make far more detailed in order to get full closure on 2006. It will be good to write it all about I am sure. Every year needs a big long farewell. Maybe when I write my 2007 ending post, I will be sad to see 2007 go? I have yet to write one of the big "year over" posts where I was sad to see the year go by. Normally I am squeeing over the fact it is over... as I am this year too:)
I must find ways of expressing myself more openly again. I got to a point where I figured people did not want to hear my self expressions anymore as they were generally the same in nature, one way or the other. But really, it was healthy to write and there were some who cared to read. Those that did not care to read, well, that is fine too. It was just a better routine in this journal than the routine of posting here and there and not having anything to say = )
Maybe I can breath some life in to this little eljayland again... huh? Set some new standards of posting! -pokes- we all could use a bit of that. Or maybe it will just be me -shrug- either way, I plan to try. I know I need it.
One thing I AM going to do in 2007 is quit smoking. I have been pondering this and I am not sure if I should try cold turkey again, or try some other methods? I still think cold turkey is the best. I mean really, if I am going to quit, just quit already! :P
Annnyways, I am trying to make myself tired. I have to get up and go to work 10-6 tomorrow, so I need to sleep sometime. This thing of going to sleep before 5am baffles me, really -shakes head-
So, 2006 is coming to a close. This is a good thing I think. This past year has seen me through some very hard times, HUGE life altering times, growing times, a few happy times, busy times... just blargh, a lot of changes and new doors opening where other doors closed in my face. 2007 will be the official start of a new life I suppose. A fresh year full of possibility. My school ends on the 4th, which means that is the last door of 2006 to close really. Good timing -nod- I have a lot of things I need to work out for the coming year, but I have a sense of "everything will be fine" going on, so I hope that I am right! If not, I still have some inner strength left to cope with anything new that comes my way. I hope :S Nah, I do. I do.
I do have some things I plan on accomplishing in the new year. One is obviously making more money. At least with a fresh start comes fresh planning and a new outlook on life. There are too many people that I care about, myself included, that are stressed out over money issues. If I could do something to change that? Yeah, I would be happy. There is a ton of money floating around in the world, I am sure I can do something to get a fair share of it.
Another thing that 2007 will bring is a happier Sadie. This is a must. I have spent far too much time over the last year (or years) complaining and whining. Most has been justified really, but I have grown tired of feeling the need to do that so often. I am a realist in most things when it comes down to it, so I know that to eliminate 100% of the whines from my life is impossible, I would like to have at least 50% happy things to say, heh. But eh, whatever, I am sure that 2007 will be a much better year -nods- Positive on that one.
This is not my proverbial New Year's post though, that one I am going to make far more detailed in order to get full closure on 2006. It will be good to write it all about I am sure. Every year needs a big long farewell. Maybe when I write my 2007 ending post, I will be sad to see 2007 go? I have yet to write one of the big "year over" posts where I was sad to see the year go by. Normally I am squeeing over the fact it is over... as I am this year too:)
I must find ways of expressing myself more openly again. I got to a point where I figured people did not want to hear my self expressions anymore as they were generally the same in nature, one way or the other. But really, it was healthy to write and there were some who cared to read. Those that did not care to read, well, that is fine too. It was just a better routine in this journal than the routine of posting here and there and not having anything to say = )
Maybe I can breath some life in to this little eljayland again... huh? Set some new standards of posting! -pokes- we all could use a bit of that. Or maybe it will just be me -shrug- either way, I plan to try. I know I need it.
One thing I AM going to do in 2007 is quit smoking. I have been pondering this and I am not sure if I should try cold turkey again, or try some other methods? I still think cold turkey is the best. I mean really, if I am going to quit, just quit already! :P
Annnyways, I am trying to make myself tired. I have to get up and go to work 10-6 tomorrow, so I need to sleep sometime. This thing of going to sleep before 5am baffles me, really -shakes head-