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My math tutor just called me...and woke me up because I fell asleep in the mac lab while I was supposed to be doing homework.
I don't know why half the work from all term seems to be loaded on now...I didn't think I let myself get that behind.
But right now I don't want to do ANYTHING.
I am so burnt out, mostly from having NO DAYS OFF this term, except TWO for thanksgiving, which I had to work during anyways......
I am returning to bad old habits.
And I know I shouldn't be, but I can't help it.
I can't make myself sit through class. I can't make myself sit and write my papers and homework.
I was doing so well......
I was worried this would happen....that I wouldn't be able to finish school directly...that I would need to take more time off.
I don't have money anymore, and I don't have the concentration for this shit....I just keep thinking of all the things, more important things, I should be doing....
I know school is very important for me, and for my future, for a good job and stuff, but I am not into it right now.
I just want to work, and to travel.
I never wanted to go to school, and it's getting sooooo hard for me to stay focused...especially since most of my academic classes are way below my skill level, which makes it soo hard to pay attention, and then I start slacking off and my grades drop.
This is what has always happened to me, even in middle school.
And then I start getting frustrated, and stop trying with school alltogether.
Sigh...
I don't know why half the work from all term seems to be loaded on now...I didn't think I let myself get that behind.
But right now I don't want to do ANYTHING.
I am so burnt out, mostly from having NO DAYS OFF this term, except TWO for thanksgiving, which I had to work during anyways......
I am returning to bad old habits.
And I know I shouldn't be, but I can't help it.
I can't make myself sit through class. I can't make myself sit and write my papers and homework.
I was doing so well......
I was worried this would happen....that I wouldn't be able to finish school directly...that I would need to take more time off.
I don't have money anymore, and I don't have the concentration for this shit....I just keep thinking of all the things, more important things, I should be doing....
I know school is very important for me, and for my future, for a good job and stuff, but I am not into it right now.
I just want to work, and to travel.
I never wanted to go to school, and it's getting sooooo hard for me to stay focused...especially since most of my academic classes are way below my skill level, which makes it soo hard to pay attention, and then I start slacking off and my grades drop.
This is what has always happened to me, even in middle school.
And then I start getting frustrated, and stop trying with school alltogether.
Sigh...